Courtroom of the Night

Lyrics

Dinner table feels like a courtroom scene Every choice I make, they gotta intervene "When you gonna quit that dream? When you gonna get in line?” They don't see the hustle, just the passing of the time Say I'm too quiet, say I look a mess Don't understand the pressure building in my chest A stranger in the house that I was raised in Lost inside a maze and the walls are caving in Look me in the eye but they don't see me Just a disappointment on the family tree I bite my tongue, another silent fight And retreat back to the sanctuary of the night But then the cups go on and the world gets low Got a hundred different voices in my stereo The kick drum hits, a beat I understand A ghost in the machine that takes me by the hand Yeah, these artists get it, every single bar Doesn't matter who I am or just how broke I are Block out all the static, all the condescends In this playlist, I got all my only friends My real friends try, they say "I'm here for you, man" But they don't get the language of a broken plan I see their eyes just glaze, a sympathetic smile They can listen for a minute but not for a while Paid a hundred bucks to sit inside a quiet room To talk about the darkness and the coming doom Therapist just nods and writes it on a pad Another empty promise, another passing fad It's a chemical thing, or it's how I was born Another label for the way I feel torn Thanks for the advice, I'll try to breathe it in But your words are just wind on my paper-thin skin But then the cups go on and the world gets low Got a hundred different voices in my stereo The kick drum hits, a beat I understand A ghost in the machine that takes me by the hand Yeah, these artists get it, every single bar Doesn't matter who I am or just how broke I are Block out all the static, all the condescends In this playlist, I got all my only friends This world is so loud with things I'll never be Judging every action, every part of me But in the space between the snare and the high-hat