Nips n Bones

Letra

[Verse 1 — Jenna] I changed my shirt about four times Before I ever left my place, Stood there talking to the mirror, Trying to calm the heat in my face. I’d pictured pulling in your driveway More nights than I’ll admit, Wondered what it’d feel like walking in Knowing exactly what this is. I’ve been alone so damn long I got good at saying I’m fine, Good at sleeping in the middle, Good at keeping these hands to mine. But tonight they’re shaking slightly When I finally kill the car, Because Nic and Jed are waiting, And I’ve never wanted anything this hard. [Pre-Chorus] I check my hair. I check my breath. Whisper, Jenna, don’t overthink this. Then I see the light through the window, And my whole body answers first. [Chorus] I’ve wanted this more than I’ve admitted, Wanted somewhere I could belong, Wanted hands reaching out for me After going untouched so long. There’s Nic standing there smiling, Jed looking straight at me, And suddenly that living room Is the only place I wanna be. I want the glances that linger, The slow move closer on the couch, The moment flirting turns to touching And nobody wants to pull away now. I’ve imagined being close to you, Both of you, more times than I’ll say. Now I’m finally here thinking, God, I’ve wanted this day. [Verse 2] Nic takes my coat from my shoulders, Jed asks what I wanna drink, I’m trying to answer normally While forgetting how to think. Music low, the room half-dark, Nic sits down beside me, Her knee stays pressed against my leg Like she knows exactly what that does to me. Jed settles close on my other side, His hand brushes mine once, twice, And suddenly every inch between us Feels too warm tonight. Nic catches me looking at her mouth. She smiles because she knows. Then she leans in close enough That I feel her breath before she goes. That first kiss is slow and careful, Soft enough to make me ache, My hand finds the curve of her waist And neither one of us pulls away. When I look up, Jed is watching. That look nearly does me in. I laugh because I’m nervous, Then he lifts my chin. He kisses me slower than I expected, Like he’s got nowhere else to be, And Nic’s hand slides into mine While both of them are close to me. [Chorus] I’ve wanted this more than I’ve admitted, Wanted both your attention on me, Nic’s fingers laced through mine, Jed pulling me closer carefully. I want the heat beneath the laughter, The kisses that make talking hard, Hands resting warm around my waist, Three heartbeats running way too fast. I’ve imagined being close to you, Both of you, more times than I’ll say. Now Nic’s lips are at my cheek And Jed’s hand still holds my waist. God, I’ve wanted this day. [Verse 3] Later the movie’s still playing, But none of us know what we missed, Because Nic is curled against me And I’m still dizzy from her kiss. Jed leans in again, Slow enough to make me melt, And after all these months imagining it, This is better than anything I built inside my head. Nic’s fingers trace along my arm, Jed’s hand settles at my side, Nothing rushed, nothing careless, Just nowhere left for nerves to hide. I can feel Nic’s breath near my neck, Jed’s forehead resting close to mine, And for one suspended second, I forget every lonely night. Maybe that’s what gets me most: Not the heat. Not the thrill. It’s the way you both make room for me Like you always somehow will. [Bridge] Being alone that long changes you. You stop expecting kisses. Stop expecting someone’s hand To reach across a room for yours. You forget what it feels like To have somebody pull you closer And want you to stay there. So if I close my eyes When Nic kisses just below my ear, If I lean back into Jed When his arms settle around me, If my breath catches When both of you pull me closer— That’s why. I wanted the closeness. I wanted the butterflies. I wanted those looks. Those kisses. Those hands. I wanted you two. And God, I wanted to feel wanted too. [Final Chorus] So I’m staying in this moment, Letting everything move slow, Nic warm against my body, Jed close enough that I know Every little shift between us, Every breath against my skin, Every kiss that lasts a second longer Than the one before it did. I don’t need to name tomorrow. I don’t need promises tonight. Right now I’m exactly where I’ve pictured myself a hundred times. I’ve been waiting. I’ve been hoping. I’ve been lonely. I’ve been brave. Now I’m here With Nic and Jed, And I finally got the night I’ve wanted all this time. [Outro — Jenna] I almost turned around At the end of your street. Funny. After wanting you both this badly, Walking through the door Was somehow the hardest part. But I did. And there you were. Both of you. Making room for me. Pulling me closer. Looking at me like I was exactly who you wanted there. And for the first time in a long time… I didn’t feel alone.