Pill after pill #V2

Lyrics

Tempo: 72 BPM Key: F Minor INTRO (Soft piano, vinyl hiss, distant thunder. Whispered doubles.) I don't want to do this anymore... Pill after pill, like the day before... (4 bars of humming) "Mmm... mm... mm..." VERSE 1 I don't want to do this anymore, Pill after pill, like the day before. Mirror keeps asking who I'm fighting for, My shadow knows every crack in the floor. Morning comes dressed in another disguise, Smile on my face while I'm dead in my eyes. Everyone tells me, "You'll be alright," They don't hear the war every single night. (MELODY) Ooooh... "Hold on..." echoes through the room. Ooooh... But the silence answers first. (PRE-CHORUS) I've been carrying mountains inside my chest, Trying my hardest just to get some rest. Every little victory feels so small... Still somehow I haven't let myself fall. (CHORUS) These demons know my first name, They whisper every old mistake. Tell me I'm too far gone, Tell me I don't belong. But somewhere underneath the pain, A little heartbeat still remains. Even when the night won't end, I'm still here... Breathing again. VERSE 2 Blue lights flicker through the blinds, Counting every restless night. The ceiling memorized my prayers, Even when nobody else was there. Heavy soul in a paper skin, Trying not to let the darkness win. One more sunrise, one more fight, Borrowing hope till morning light. (MELODY) "Stay..." (Soft harmonies floating behind the beat.) "Stay..." Even if it's only for today. VERSE 3 I wear my laughter like borrowed clothes, Nobody sees how deep it goes. Every heartbeat feels overdue, Still there's a spark that's making it through. The ghosts all gather when lights go low, Telling me things I already know. But truth is louder than fear can be, Even if it's hard for me to see. BRIDGE Maybe healing isn't loud. Maybe it's surviving now. Maybe strength looks different here— One more breath... One more year. Maybe scars don't mean I lose. Maybe hope is something bruised. Maybe tomorrow starts tonight... One more step into the light. VERSE 4 Rain keeps falling on the glass, Watching lonely moments pass. Every tear became a sea, Still it never swallowed me. I've been breaking, I've been bent, Every ounce of courage spent. Yet somehow underneath the ache, Something refuses still to break. CHORUS These demons know my first name, They whisper every old mistake. Tell me I'm too far gone, Tell me I don't belong. But somewhere underneath the pain, A little heartbeat still remains. Even when the night won't end, I'm still here... Breathing again. VERSE 5 If tomorrow finds my door, I'll meet it like the ones before. Not because I'm unafraid, Because I made it through today. Every pill and every tear, Every lonely, haunted year, Never got to write the end— I'm still turning every page. MELODY Mm-mm... "Keep breathing..." Mm-mm... "You're more than this..." VERSE 6 Maybe someday I'll believe All the kindness people see. Maybe I'll look back and know How much stronger I could grow. Till then every single dawn Means another battle won. Even when my hands still shake... Hope survives inside the break. FINAL CHORUS These demons know my first name, Still they never own my soul. Every scar became a map, Leading me back home. Darkness doesn't get the last word, Not tonight, not anymore. One heartbeat... One sunrise... One open door. OUTRO (Only piano and vinyl remain.) I don't want to do this anymore... Pill after pill, like the day before... But somewhere inside this tired heart, There's still a reason To look for one more morning. (Fade into humming.) "Ooooh... Mmm... Ooooh..."