rehab, oh shit

Lyrics

Yeah... They said, "Get clean." I did. Then they said, "You missed court." How I'm supposed to fight addiction and the whole damn system at the same time? This one for everybody still trying... [Verse 1] Born in the gutter, life dealt a crooked hand, Every dream I touched turned to dust in the sand. Rehab bed calling, trying to break these chains, Judge saying, "Failure," never felt my pain. Court date missed, I was fighting for my soul, Trying not to end up another body in a hole. Doctors got appointments, counselors got plans, Meanwhile warrants getting signed by invisible hands. I'm choosing life, they choosing cuffs, Every time I stand back up, they say it ain't enough. Kicked while I'm crawling, they don't care I'm changing, Whole world judging while my demons still raging. Mama praying daily, hoping I survive, System betting money I won't stay alive. Every step forward feel like two steps back, Trying to leave the streets but they pulling me back. [Hook] I'm trying to heal while they building my case, Every move I make, they throw it in my face. Trying to be better, nobody notice me, Only see the record, never who I'm trying to be. Crooked games, dirty badges, all lies, Truth don't matter when the paperwork flies. Still I stand, even when the world say "Fall," Can't kill my spirit—I survived it all. [Verse 2] They say justice blind, nah, justice got a price, Seen good people lose for rolling loaded dice. Dirty reports, stories changing overnight, Trying to tell the truth but it never sound right. Labels on my name before I say a word, Every cry for help goes completely unheard. Rehab to probation, meetings every day, Miss one because you're sick—they say you ran away. Trying to get sober while the pressure never ends, Lose your family, lose your freedom, lose your friends. Every relapse treated like a felony, Nobody asking what created all the misery. I've been broke, I've been hungry, slept cold, Still found strength when my heart felt old. Everybody love a comeback when it's done, Nobody wanna watch you fight to become one. [Hook] I'm trying to heal while they building my case, Every move I make, they throw it in my face. Trying to be better, nobody notice me, Only see the record, never who I'm trying to be. Crooked games, dirty badges, all lies, Truth don't matter when the paperwork flies. Still I stand, even when the world say "Fall," Can't kill my spirit—I survived it all. [Verse 3] I ain't saying every badge dirty in the field, But one crooked move leave a lifetime never healed. When the truth gets buried underneath a stack of files, It can take a lifetime just to walk a mile. Everybody talking, ain't nobody listening, Trying to rebuild while my future keep slipping. I'm more than my mistakes, more than my past, Trying to make this second chance finally last. Scars on my soul but my heart still beats, Learning how to live without running these streets. If you see somebody fighting just to make it through the day, Don't write them off—help them find another way. [Outro] They can write reports... They can file charges... They can judge my yesterday... But they don't own tomorrow. I'm still here. Still breathing. Still fighting.