awerysopelea - Then Change

מילים

[Cold Open] You always cried at the right part. That was almost worse. [Apology One] The first time, you arrived past midnight, shaking like the hurt was yours. You said fear can make us cruel. Said you’d never felt so sure. By sunrise, I was holding you, explaining why you broke me. I mistook your shame for honesty because it sounded lonely. [Refrain] You said sorry so beautifully, I almost forgot you never changed. You made regret sound holy— then did the same thing anyway. Don’t give me tears. Don’t give me reasons. Don’t make pain pronounce my name. If you’re sorry— then change. [Apology Two] You learned which words unlocked me, which old wound made me stay. You could turn one quiet “I need you” into another month erased. Each promise came in better language. Every ending more rehearsed. You became so good at grieving that I missed who had been hurt. [Refrain] You said sorry so beautifully, I almost forgot you never changed. You made regret sound holy— then did the same thing anyway. Don’t give me tears. Don’t give me reasons. Don’t make pain pronounce my name. If you’re sorry— then change. [The Apology Loop] I’m sorry. I was scared. I wasn’t myself. You know how I get. It meant nothing. You mean everything. It won’t happen again. This is the last time. I swear. I love you. I love you. I love— [Interruption] Then change. [What Sorry Means] Now I wait after the sentence and I watch what happens next. Sorry isn’t how you suffer. It is what changes when it’s said. I can miss the way you held me and still not hand you back the key. Love can understand your reasons without making them my responsibility. [Final Refrain] You said sorry so beautifully. I finally heard what beauty hides. Regret can sound like revelation and still leave the truth outside. Keep your tears. Keep your reasons. I won’t carry them again. If you’re sorry— then change. [Outro] Sometimes your voice comes back at midnight— perfect, shaking, saying my name. And part of me still wants to answer. That part of me hasn’t changed.