The devil made me

Lyrics

I'm a monster, a heartless piece of shit guilty or the crimes the devil forced me to commit Corruption runs deep, you think u know shit hopfully you read this, so I can fill you in abit speak my truth after I blow out my brains confront all the souls whome i brought pain Seen newborns snuffed and died with no names innocence snuffed and tortured as if it’s a game Haunted by faces of the lives that I claimed Tried burying the truth, but the truth seems to stain forced into picking up kids who’d run away they all came with me in hopes of a place to stay forced to bound and gag them while the elites would come and play these kids clung on for for hours sometimes even days their parents left to think they’d forever run away or the baby ripped from his alive mothers womb tortured infront of her and forced to consume was told to eat or go the same way If I didn't follow orders, my family would pay. I should’ve stopped it, my mind always replays the sound of desperation in their pleading voice-as My conscience is screaming, (“THE DEVILS FKN WON”) CANT SLEEP AT ALL ANYMORE (“OH FUCK WHAT HAVE I DONE”) writing this hands shaking in apprehension the truth I be holding in my possession ain't a suicide note, its a damn confession my last and only attempt for redemption Now I'm staring down the barrel, feelin' no hesitation blood on my hands my motivation that non stop Screaming in those Godforsaken places So here's the ledger, the names, the dates, the places things I couldn't share without recalling all their names and faces maybe this will change things... or they still remain unfazed ‘n the visions in my head there’s no fucking escaping their pleading' to go back to the home they’d been escaping ain't a cry for help, it's a final declaration Against the suffocating silence, the brutal violation. think they're untouchable, and we’re here for their fascination But truth is a wildfire, threatening their cohabitation If you find this letter than I’m already deceased this is a battle you could help me beat thinking of their eyes haunted with defeat This world is a fucking nightmare, full of deciet built their empire on the backs of all the weak my silence is broken, I must finally speak these demons all draped in designer fabric working as your childrens paediatrics im scared the truth will die with me tonight. Maybe there's forgiveness, on the other side Maybe there's a place where I can finally hide im a fucking coward wish there was more I tried my gun barrel's cold steel, pressed against my temple The devil's whispers to me (“escaping ain’t that simple”) I pull the trigger with a deafening rumble my hearing and sight all suddenly muffled fall to my knees face first i tumble escaping this life that got me so troubled Maybe in another life, I can redeem myself maybe I don’t come back just go straight to hell id ask for forgiveness but can’t forgive myself this world is so fucking evil no idea the depths the delve