Lyrics

Hook (sung, cracked voice)

I put the blame where the mirror stands
She’s gone and I’m the one who ran
I hold her name in these trembling hands
Ashes on my hands, ashes on my hands…


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Verse 1 (rap/spoken)

I ain’t cry at the funeral — guess I was too cold
Held that urn like a lifeline, but my grip let go
Doctors said there’s nothin’ I could do — I know
But I still see her face when I lie on the floor
Was supposed to protect her, now I just reflect her
In every broken thing I touch — I’m the defector
They say guilt’s a poison — nah, it’s a mirror
And every day I drink just to see her clearer


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Hook (repeat with slight variation)

I put the blame where the mirror stands
She’s gone and I’m the one who ran
I hold her name in these trembling hands
Ashes on my hands… can’t wash this damn sand


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Verse 2

I flagellate with silence, punish myself with replay
Wishin’ I had died and not left her that day
I hear her voice in the walls, feel her breath in the cold
It’s like grief took a blade and carved lines in my soul
People talk God, but He ain’t show up
So now I write prayers in blood and roll up
Sometimes I laugh just to cover the ache
But even my smile knows it’s fake — it breaks


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Bridge (sung soft, whispery)

I let her die — can’t say it out loud
So I scream in my sleep just to drown it out
I walk with the weight of a ghost on my spine
Punishment fits the crime…


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Final Hook (voice fading)

Ashes on my hands, can’t hold on no more
I’m just a man who locked his own door
She’s free, and I stay behind the bars…
Ashes on my hands, scars on my heart…