Ash in your Halo #V3

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[INTRO — distant / half-whispered] Just pretty words falling from a fallen angel's mouth. They mean nothing much, it's all ash now. You used to sound like heaven when you said my name... Now heaven smells like whiskey, and you only call when you need somebody to blame. [VERSE 1 — intimate, restrained] You keep your halo underneath the bar light, Crooked on your head like you're still alright. Another glass sweating between your hands, Making promises you don't intend to understand. You say, "Baby, I'm just going through hell," Like that excuses putting everybody else there as well. You drink until your conscience doesn't make a sound, Then wonder why nobody wants to stick around. And every person who ever tried to love you Has got a scar shaped a little bit like your touch. Still, you swear you're the one who's bleeding— God, you've always needed sympathy too much. [PRE-CHORUS — melody begins climbing] Maybe you fell from heaven... Maybe heaven threw you out. Maybe those wings weren't taken— Maybe you burned them yourself to the ground. And I would've walked through fire If you'd just reached your hand out... But you poured another drink And watched me drown. [CHORUS — full drums / distorted guitars] You've got ash in your halo, Whiskey on your breath, You keep loving people halfway, Then hurting them to death. Not enough to kill the heart, Just enough to make it ache. You know exactly where we're fragile, You know exactly where we'll break. Oh, fallen angel, Who are you blaming now? You keep begging God for mercy With the devil in your mouth. And everybody tried to save you— You just pulled us down instead. There's ash in your halo... And heaven's given up again. [VERSE 2 — bass-forward / R&B pocket] Your apologies get prettier every year, You've learned exactly what somebody needs to hear. "I'll quit tomorrow." "Baby, this one's my last." But tomorrow keeps becoming another empty glass. You disappear for hours, then stumble through the door, Looking for forgiveness you've already spent before. Kiss somebody's forehead, tell them, "I love you." Then find the deepest wound they've got and push your thumb into it too. You're gentle when you're guilty, Cruel when you're ashamed. And somehow every fire that you start Ends with somebody else's name. You don't want redemption. You just hate sleeping alone. So you keep building little heavens Out of people you call home. Then burn them when you're bored. [PRE-CHORUS — stronger harmonies] Maybe you fell from heaven... Maybe heaven threw you out. Maybe those wings weren't taken— Maybe you burned them yourself to the ground. I would've carried your demons If you'd ever put the bottle down... But you loved being broken More than you loved having me around. [CHORUS — bigger / octave harmony] You've got ash in your halo, Whiskey on your breath, You keep loving people halfway, Then hurting them to death. Not enough to kill the heart, Just enough to make it ache. You know exactly where we're fragile, You know exactly where we'll break. Oh, fallen angel, Who are you blaming now? You keep begging God for mercy With the devil in your mouth. And everybody tried to save you— You just pulled us down instead. There's ash in your halo... And heaven's given up again. [VERSE 3 — stripped down / soul section] Drums disappear. Rhodes piano + trembling clean guitar. I remember when I thought your sadness made you deep. So I'd stay awake beside you when you couldn't sleep. I mistook your brokenness for something I could mend, Never realizing you were breaking me instead. I learned your favorite liquor, Every lie behind your eyes. The difference between your honest voice And the one you use when you're trying to survive. I cleaned the glass up from the kitchen. I took the blame when you got mean. I kept finding feathers everywhere From the angel I believed I'd seen. But loving you was worship At an altar built from pain. And I finally stopped praying For somebody who refused to change. [BRIDGE — psychedelic / vocal stacks] Bass drops out. Vocal harmonies stack left and right. You weren't cursed. You weren't doomed. You weren't destined for the dark. You had hands reaching for you Every time you fell apart. But you bit every hand that held you, Then cried when they let go. And called yourself abandoned Like you didn't already know... You were the one letting go. (Silence) You were the one. Huge distorted guitar swell. [VERSE 4 — heavier / final confrontation] So drink another memory until you can't remember me. Tell another stranger how your lovers turned to enemies. Leave out every shattered promise, every screaming match, Every bridge you soaked in gasoline before you struck the match. Tell them you were misunderstood. Tell them everybody leaves. Tell them you're a fallen angel