The Little House We Never Built

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[Verse 1] I was picking out a future, You were living in your past. I was dreaming of forever, You were hiding what you had. Three years of saying I love you, Three years of holding on, While I was making plans for us, You had a life where I don’t belong. You told me never lie to you, And I swear I never did. You said if I found somebody, Just tell you how I felt. But I never wanted someone else, There was nobody but you. And the hardest part of losing us, Is knowing you already knew. [Pre-Chorus] I felt you slipping through my hands, But I thought we’d find our way. I never thought the one I loved, Had a secret life she’d made. [Chorus] I was planning forever, You were already someone’s wife. I was dreaming of our wedding, You were living another life. I was saving all my tomorrows, You were giving yours away. I was praying we’d grow old together, Now I barely make it through the day. And God, I wish that I could hate you, But my heart won’t let me try. ’Cause I was planning forever, While forever was a lie. [Verse 2] I remember all the late nights, Every promise that we made. Every time I said I’d stay here, Every time you said the same. I was there when life got heavy, When your world was falling down. I would’ve walked through hell to hold you, But who’s gonna hold me now? I would’ve given you a lifetime, Every heartbeat, every breath. I was ready for the hard days, For whatever we had left. Now I’m staring at a stranger, With the eyes I used to know. And I’m grieving someone living, Someone I can’t let go. [Pre-Chorus] Tell me, was there ever a moment, When you almost told the truth? Did you ever picture our forever, Or was that just something I would do? [Chorus] I was planning forever, You were already someone’s wife. I was dreaming of our wedding, You were living another life. I was saving all my tomorrows, You were giving yours away. I was praying we’d grow old together, Now I barely make it through the day. And God, I wish that I could hate you, But my heart won’t let me try. ’Cause I was planning forever, While forever was a lie. [Bridge – Soft, almost breaking] Did you think about me when you held his hand? Did you know you were breaking all the plans I had? When you said you loved me, was it ever true? ’Cause every dream I ever had was wrapped around you. And I don’t know how to stop loving, Someone I still call my home. How do you say goodbye to forever, When forever’s all you’ve known? I don’t just miss the woman, I miss the life we never had. The mornings and the memories, The children and the laughs. The little house, the growing old, The dreams that felt so real. How do I bury a whole lifetime, That only I could feel? [Final Chorus – Powerful, emotional] I was planning forever, You were already someone’s wife. I was giving you my whole heart, You were living another life. I would’ve loved you through the darkness, Through the storms and through the rain. And even knowing what I know now, I’d still hold you through your pain. And I hate that I still love you, After everything you’ve done. You were my once-in-a-lifetime, I thought I was your one. I was planning forever, You were already someone’s wife. You were everything I wanted, You were supposed to be my life. [Outro – Whispered, piano fading] I hope he knows how lucky he is, To wake up next to you. I hope he never has to wonder, If the love he knows is true. And if you ever think about me, I hope you understand… I wasn’t just planning a future. I was planning to be your man. And while you’re living out your forever… I’m still trying to survive The one we never had.