Never Permanent

Lyrics

Verse 1
 You call when the silence gets loud
When the nights get too heavy to hold
I know every version of your hurt
But somehow you don’t know my soul I’m the place that you run to heal
The arms you fall into when you’re weak
But when it’s time to build a home
You always forget about me And maybe that’s the part that stings
Being everything but the ring
Being everything but the choice
Everything but what you keep Pre-Chorus 
You say you pay attention
But attention ain’t hearing my tears after I cry
If you really knew me like you swear you do
You’d see the hurt before it reaches my eyes Chorus
 If I gotta teach you how to love me
Then baby, what are we doing?
If it’s really as deep as you say
Why am I always proving? Why do I feel like I’m begging
For things that should come naturally?
I refuse to get on my knees
For somebody claiming they’re attached to me I’m good enough for the moment
Good enough for the escape
Good enough for your lonely nights
But never enough to stay And that’s the kind of pain
Nobody can take away
Knowing you’re enough in your heart
But never feeling that way Verse 2
 I keep giving unconditional
Like my love grows back on trees
Every lesson wears a different face
But somehow they’re all leaving me I loved people through their darkness
Held them together when they fell apart
Just to watch them walk away whole
With pieces they took from my heart Tell me why the givers always leave empty
Why the loyal ones question their worth
Why the people with the purest intentions
End up hurting the worst Pre-Chorus 
You keep saying “tell me what you need”
But love shouldn’t feel like directions
If your heart was really listening
I wouldn’t have to write the instructions Chorus 
If I gotta teach you how to love me
Then baby, what are we doing?
If it’s really as deep as you say
Why am I always proving? Why do I feel like I’m begging
For things that should come naturally?
I refuse to get on my knees
For somebody claiming they’re attached to me I’m good enough for the moment
Good enough for the escape
Good enough for your lonely nights
But never enough to stay And that’s the kind of pain
Nobody can take away
Knowing you’re enough in your heart
But never feeling that way Bridge
 I know my value, I know my name
Still some nights the mirror feels strange
‘Cause confidence don’t stop the ache
When disappointment keeps showing up the same I know I’m worthy of forever
But forever never comes around
Just temporary hands and promises
That always let me down Outro 
So I’ll stop knocking on closed doors
Stop asking people to see me
The right love won’t need a translator
The right love will read me And maybe one day I’ll believe
What I’ve been telling everybody else
That being enough isn’t something
You should have to prove to someone else…