Way to Fucking High

Lyrics

. JustMove2Rise
Yo, yoyoyoyo,
Aye bro ski
Ya, this may be too true for me to say
But if I'm looking from the view of how you must see me today
I can tell you I've never ever had a clue.
Nothing feels very real.
When every single thought is new. As soon as one pops up it's gone so fast I can't say the words I think
got me Feeling really stuck.
I can't speak the words fast enough
That's when I see that I really fucked up.
This has gotta be higher than I've ever been definitely higher than I wanna be.
I Can barely see.
I can feel how hard I have to breathe.
Thinking when will I get some relief.
I'm In dis belief.
I feel like Heather had to feel kinda makes me feel bad until I feel the guilt for real.
Damn, I gotta chill,
Hope it don't kill me
Cuz I want to live and see my very best.
I confess I have regrets.
Cuz this Life I can't forget.
I hate the way I love this shit
Overthinking the way I gotta look like to everybody
Tried to apologize for how high I am without a lie.
Nope, that'll never work, even I don't buy that try.
Why
Do I
Even try
Cause it's all I've ever really loved
Is This a feeling that I wish I could get rid of?
Can't even try.
I'm too damn high to look anyone in their eyes.
I wear my truth all over my face.
I Think it's plain to see I'm just a broken disgrace.
Don't let excuses take the place
Of the truth that only I will ever taste
Oh my God, why are my thoughts in a race?
Can't keep pace, so I gotta give chase. Now I'm all over here full of fear
Inside wishing for sobriety,
Is addiction lying to me,
Or even if I listen up.
Do I really want to quit using drugs
The answer never comes
God why don't I care
I can understand my thoughts so rare
Into my writing To ask for truth and bare
an honest answer
Hopefully, I will actually be fair.
Wait!
Would I actually lie to myself about not lying to myself?
What the hell?
No idea
Why I Outta
Try a lotta
I gotta
Spot a
Nothing much
With any luck
My mind Will just
Let reality rush back in a whole bunch
Hmm what will I have for lunch
Why is it when I'm high
I think Everybody knows the lie I hide inside
Maybe it's because I provide my eyes too wide
In every one of my replies
And then I realized
My pride denied my brain To comply
But why
Is this the way I am Going to die?
Don't think like that
I gotta fight back
All I can do is react
To the fact
I can't understand crap
Yes I'm talking this and that
It's worth knowing this is where my understandings at
Holy hell I might be perma twacked
The thought damn near gives me a panic attack
I hope I can deal with how I really feel until I can actually enjoy my chill. So what I feel feels real still
Now I can't believe it
How did this happen again, right
Every time I write a line my mind reminds me of a time that rhymes
So the memories I write my pain in words for the world hear to Release feelings I've held o tight. Knowing it'll span the test of time
At least it will in the shadows of the unheard music o