I’m not okay

Lyrics

[INTRO] I wish my mind would be still, But it’s tumbling like a restless hill, Enclosed and locked, heart sealed tight, Echoing the slams that haunt my night. [VERSE 1] I’m anxious, I’m uncomfortable, This weight inside feels insurmountable, Miserable, a prisoner of my own design, Living in the shadow of a heart that’s no longer mine. [CHORUS] Penance must be paid for the love that I stole, You showed me the light, but I lost control, Cold and alone, I sit in the rain, Wishing that your warmth could lessen my pain. [VERSE 2] I wish there were more of you to hold, A whisper of comfort in the love that turned cold, To see you whole, no scars to weigh you down, Just the light you bring, spinning softly 'round. [BRIDGE] But many do not know pure love’s embrace, In a world so rough, it’s a sacred space, Where genuineness cascades like a soft falling star, Yet here I am hiding, feeling so far. [CHORUS] Penance must be paid for the love that I stole, You showed me the light, but I lost control, Cold and alone, I sit in the rain, Wishing that your warmth could lessen my pain. [VERSE 3] I miss you; I pushed you away, The blessing you were slipped further each day, It’s hard to love myself when I run from the divine, Spitting at the cosmos as I wallow in the line. [CHORUS] I’m not OK, but I hope this will pass, I’m not OK, in a world made of glass, I feel I’d find pleasure in swallowing the whole, But what fills the void? It’s you—it's your soul. [OUTRO] I wish my mind would be still, But I’m soldiering on through this rugged hill, Seeking your light in the shadows I roam, Hoping one day I’ll find my way home.