Way to Fucking HIgh

Lyrics

JustMove2Rise this may be too true for me to say But if I'm looking from the view of how you must see me today I can tell you I've never ever had a clue. Nothing feels very real. When every single thought is new. As soon as one pops up it's gone so fast I can't say the words I think got me Feeling really stuck. I can't speak the words fast enough That's when I see that I really fucked up. This has gotta be higher than I've ever been definitely higher than I wanna be. I Can barely see. I can feel how hard I have to breathe. Thinking when will I get some relief. I'm In dis belief. I feel like Heather had to feel kinda makes me feel bad until I feel the guilt for real. Damn, I gotta chill, Hope it don't kill me Cuz I want to live and see my very best. I confess I have regrets. Cuz this Life I can't forget. I hate the way I love this shit Overthinking the way I gotta look like to everybody Tried to apologize for how high I am without a lie. Nope, that'll never work, even I don't buy that try. Why Do I Even try Cause it's all I've ever really loved Is This a feeling that I wish I could get rid of? Can't even try. I'm too damn high to look anyone in their eyes. I wear my truth all over my face. I Think it's plain to see I'm just a broken disgrace. Don't let excuses take the place Of the truth that only I will ever taste Oh my God, why are my thoughts in a race? Can't keep pace, so I gotta give chase. Now I'm all over here full of fear Inside wishing for sobriety, Is addiction lying to me, Or even if I listen up. Do I really want to quit using drugs The answer never comes God why don't I care I can understand my thoughts so rare Into my writing To ask for truth and bare an honest answer Hopefully, I will actually be fair. Wait! Would I actually lie to myself about not lying to myself? What the hell? No idea Why I Outta Try a lotta I gotta Spot a Nothing much With any luck My mind Will just Let reality rush back in a whole bunch Hmm what will I have for lunch Why is it when I'm high I think Everybody knows the lie I hide inside Maybe it's because I provide my eyes too wide In every one of my replies And then I realized My pride denied my brain To comply But why Is this the way I am Going to die? Don't think like that I gotta fight back All I can do is react To the fact I can't understand crap Yes I'm talking this and that It's worth knowing this is where my understandings at Holy hell I might be perma twacked The thought damn near gives me a panic attack I hope I can deal with how I really feel until I can actually enjoy my chill. So what I feel feels real still Now I can't believe How did this happen again, right When I choose a beat for my lyrics to eat. I'll revive the vibe, I’m never killing any beat I will beat this addiction and overcome the damn mental affliction that comes alive inside of me never ever was able to confront the demons that deepen the depression that threatens my progression