Home In Fallujah

Songtext

[Verse 1] Boots by the front door, still caked in dust Mama set a plate down, I just stared at it Try to wash my hands, but the sink turns red Every loud truck backfires in my head I smile at my girl, but I’m gone by then Half in this kitchen, half in that tin can Hands on the table, knees in a shake One slammed screen door and the whole room breaks [Pre-Chorus] I hear that hum I hit the ground I’m right back there I don’t come down [Chorus] I’m home, but I’m not I’m home, but I’m not (Still there, still there) I sleep in the war I live in the war (I live in the war) [Verse 2] Third shift ending, same old gas station Bright blue freezer hums like a convoy nation Kid with a soda says, “Mister, you okay?” I say “Yeah,” then I look away Back porch swinging, summer rain falls hard Every drop on metal sounds like round after round I hold my boy close when the thunder starts Then I flinch so bad it tears me apart [Pre-Chorus] I hear that hum I hit the ground I’m right back there I don’t come down [Chorus] I’m home, but I’m not I’m home, but I’m not (Still there, still there) I sleep in the war I live in the war (I live in the war) [Bridge] Got a purple heart and a busted calm Got a smile for church and a bomb in my palm Doc says “breathe slow,” but I breathe in sand I keep reaching for smoke with an empty hand If I close my eyes, I hear boots line up Hear somebody yelling, hear a chain-gun cough But my little girl laughs from the other room And that sound pulls me back through [Final Chorus] I’m home, but I’m not I’m home, but I’m not (Still there, still there) I sleep in the war I live in the war (I live in the war) I’m home, but I’m not I’m home, but I’m not (Still there, still there) I’m here with my blood I’m here with my love But I’m not all here