The Enemy in me

Songtext

[Intro – Quiet] I keep running, never leave. Every road runs back through me. [Verse 1 – Rap] Wake with the weight and a knot in my chest, voice in my head saying, “You failed the test.” It knows every fault, every scar, every doubt, waits till I’m weak, then it drags them all out. Face in the glass, but it doesn’t feel mine, smile for the room while I’m breaking inside. I tell them I’m fine, but the lie’s wearing thin, I hear that voice and it pulls me back in. Run from the blame, but the blame keeps pace, take every road, see the same old face. No matter how far, no matter where I flee, I can never outrun the enemy in ME. [Pre-Chorus – Sung] I lock every door, but it still gets inside. I bury the truth, but it won’t stay QUIET. [Chorus – Sung] The enemy in me knows exactly where I bleed. Turns a memory to a weapon, turns a whisper into belief. I keep trying to break free, but it’s looking through my eyes. How do I fight what follows every time I try to hide? The enemy in me, the enemy in me— I’m losing every battle to the voice inside of me. [Verse 2 – Rap] Built every wall just to shut out the pain, watched all of the walls slowly form a cage. Pushed people out, said I needed the space, truth was, I hated the look on my face. Replay the words that I wish I could erase, promises broken and lies I embraced. Guilt has a grip, and it tightens with time, I punish myself for the peace I can’t find. I know it is poison, I know how it speaks, turns all of my fear into something I believe. I’m begging for silence, one second of peace, but the harder I fight, the louder it SPEAKS. [Pre-Chorus – Sung] I lock every door, but it still gets inside. I bury the truth, but it won’t stay QUIET. [Chorus – Sung] The enemy in me knows exactly where I bleed. Turns a memory to a weapon, turns a whisper into belief. I keep trying to break free, but it’s looking through my eyes. How do I fight what follows every time I try to hide? The enemy in me, the enemy in me— I’m losing every battle to the voice inside of ME. [Bridge – Quiet, Building] Maybe I’m not broken. Maybe I’m afraid. Maybe all this hatred comes from wounds I never faced. If I built this prison, I can find a way out. I may never erase it, but it won’t decide me NOW. [Breakdown – Rap / Shouted] You know my name, but you don’t own my voice. You fed me fear—now I’m making a choice. You grew in the dark from the things I denied, but I see you now, there’s nowhere to hide. Every scar, every flaw, every part I reject is a piece of myself I was taught to neglect. You can live in my head, you can shout, you can grow, but you don’t get to choose where I GO. [Final Chorus – Sung / Shouted] The enemy in me still remembers where I bleed. Still can twist a memory into proof of every lie I believe. But I’m learning how to breathe, even when it wears my face. I don’t have to lose myself just because it never fades. The enemy in me, the enemy in me— you may always be a part of me, but you’ll never speak for ME. [Outro – Quiet] I kept running, now I see: I don’t have to run from the enemy in me.