Still going VAI

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[INTRO] In a city that turns kids into men, I learned to pray, I learned to bleed. [VERSE 1] I grew up afraid, the world a thin line, Dad gone, mom holding the weight. She was steel, but I saw the cracks in her armor, A heart that never fully healed. I carried blades and secrets, Thought survival was strength. At twelve, chasing women like trophies, Mistaking lust for love, numbness for power. [PRE‑CHORUS] By nineteen I wore a navy uniform, Still that scared kid inside, medals on a chest. Drinking became my prayer, money my god, Even drunk, even dirty, a tug in my heart. [CHORUS] Through the storms, through the shame, When I was lost in my own name, He never left me. Even when I turned away, Grace kept chasing every day— He never left me. And I’m still fighting. [VERSE 2] Then love showed up, a soft voice, a strong faith, A woman I didn't deserve. We built a life, but walls rose higher, A husband in body, broken in soul. A bottle in my hand, pain in her eyes, I built a life of lies, a life that dies. I thought the bottle was a friend, But it was the enemy that would never bend. [BRIDGE] I keep on chasing the ghost of who I was, Trying to patch the holes in my past. The city’s lights are a siren's call, But the darkness in me won’t let me fall. [CHORUS] Through the storms, through the shame, When I was lost in my own name, He never left me. Even when I turned away, Grace kept chasing every day— He never left me. And I’m still fighting. [HOOK] I hear Him whisper, "You’re not alone," A quiet promise in a world turned cold. I feel His hand in every breath I take, In the echo of a heart that’s learning to break. [OUTRO] The city fades, the night’s still cold, But I walk with a story untold. A boy who grew, a