Die for

Songtext

It's crazy how the people you would give your last breath to… Be the same ones watchin' you struggle just to breathe… I would've took a bullet for you… You couldn't even stand beside me when life got hard… (softly) That hurt different… [Verse 1 — low, emotional singing] I gave you my last when I barely had enough, You called me when you were broken, I came runnin' with my love. I was fightin' my own demons, still made sure you were good, Guess I thought that bein' loyal meant you'd love me like you should. I put my trust in your hands, you treated it like nothin', I was givin' you my all while you were givin' me assumptions. I defended you in rooms where they were speakin' on your name, Then you sat beside the people who were wishin' me the pain. I would've walked through fire just to make sure you were safe, You watched me burn from a distance, never tried to make a change. I was carryin' your burdens while you added to my weight, Now I'm learnin' love ain't love if I'm the only one who stays. I thought blood made us family, thought loyalty meant forever, But some people share your history and still don't know your heart. I was holdin' us together when the whole thing fell apart, Now I'm pickin' up the pieces in a room that's gone dark. [Pre-Chorus — gentle melody, slight rasp] And I hate that I still miss you when you hurt me like you did… I keep thinkin' 'bout the good times, not the way you made me feel… I gave you every part of me, you treated it like nothin'… Now I'm scared to give my heart again, 'cause love don't feel like love no more… [Hook — clean, soulful singing; let each thought breathe] I would've died for the ones who couldn't live with me hurtin'… Gave 'em everything I had, still felt like I wasn't worth it… I was there when they were broken, when the whole world turned against 'em… When it was my turn to need 'em, they forgot that I existed… I gave my heart to people who would watch it break in pieces… I kept callin' it forgiveness when they gave me more reasons… And the ones I thought would catch me let me fall without a warning… Now I'm wakin' up alone with all this pain I never wanted… (soft guitar pause) I never wanted… No, I never wanted… [Verse 2 — more personal, emotional storytelling] I remember missin' meals so you could eat and feel okay, Gave you money I needed, never asked when you'd repay. When you called me in the midnight, I would answer every time, Now my phone could ring a hundred times, you wouldn't cross your mind. I was proud to call you family, put your name beside my own, Never thought the ones I trusted would make loneliness my home. You knew all my insecurities, the things I never showed, And you used the map I gave you just to find a way to wound me. That's a different kind of hurt when they know exactly where to aim, When they know the reason you don't trust and still give you more pain. I was tellin' you my secrets, you were memorizing my weakness, I was thinkin' we were healing, you were givin' me new reasons. I ain't mad about the money or the things I gave away, It's the time I can't recover, it's the love I can't replace. It's the nights I needed someone, you were nowhere to be found, It's the fact I would've carried you, but you couldn't hold me down. I would've stood up in your defense when everybody turned, Now I'm sittin' with the lessons that your betrayal made me learn. Funny how I lit the candle just to keep your world from dark, Then you used that same flame to leave a scar across my heart. [Pre-Chorus — quiet singing, voice trembling slightly] And I hate that I remember you as more than what you did… 'Cause the good times keep on fightin' with the pain you left within… I keep wishin' you were sorry, wish you'd tell me why you changed… But I can't keep losin' pieces of myself to keep you in my life… [Hook — same melody, stronger emotion] I would've died for the ones who couldn't live with me hurtin'… Gave 'em everything I had, still felt like I wasn't worth it… I was there when they were broken, when the whole world turned against 'em… When it was my turn to need 'em, they forgot that I existed… I gave my heart to people who would watch it break in pieces… I kept callin' it forgiveness when they gave me more reasons… And the ones I thought would catch me let me fall without a warning… Now I'm wakin' up alone with all this pain I never wanted… [Verse 3 — heartfelt, stripped-back guitar] Sometimes I wonder if you think about the way we used to be, If you ever feel the guilt when you remember what you did to me. Do you tell yourself a story where you never did me wrong? Do you ever miss the person who kept helpin' you stay strong? I don't need you to come beggin', I don't need revenge or closure, I just wish the love I gave you wasn't somethin' you got over. I was treatin' you like home, you were treatin' me like shelter, Somewhere in between the two, I forgot to save myself. I let you cross my boundaries just to prove that I was loyal,