Lyrics

Female rapping these lyrics:
Dear Mom,
It's been a long time.
I've learned alot about life.
It's been a constant fight.
I've started to lose sight.
I drive for miles, -my eyes stuck on the rearview mirror.
I think to myself, I think.. - "I wish I could see her."
My vision goes blurry.
All these tears!
I can't steer!
What happened to the dream? The dream of us? Our family? My brothers? your two sons..
This is your life, but it's my life too.
I know you are scared. Like you've ran out of time.
But here I am mom, writing you this rhyme.
Strong, you are.
-You got in your car.
You're gone! for the 18th time.
I'm 20, in two days I'll be 21.
Another year of our time!
But where will I be when I'm 29?
Will the family be fine? ...
Or will I have created mine?
What if I have a daughter?
What if I have a son?
And what about the time we can't get back or rewind? I remind ---
me of you, without the you.
What do I do? My cars broken down so many times.
Where do I go? Look between the lines. What if I don't make it? Financially.. I mean atleast I graduated. But College? I never made it. I smoke blunts to us, like us, the memories have faded.
Please don't feel hated! That's not what I'm saying.
And God.. I've tried praying.
Don't cry when this song is playing. What I mean is.. I've created my own hell to stay in.
-Enough about the past, what do we have now?
The truth is.. my heart is a ghost town. Empty, but full of silence.
Will I be good enough to be my kids only reliance?
Or will I need a bigger tissue to cry in? What if I told you right now I'm slowly dying.
I'm done trying.
I'll keep it to myself, because for my nephew I am smiling.
And as his grandma you should be too.
I understand its hard, being the mother. And as a grandmother you are pained by my brother, .... your son.
But what about when I'm in your shoes? A mother, a child, a jump off the roof and no parachute.
What if I don't make it past 25? What if I die before my destined time?
Where will I be? What will my kid do? Will they have you like I had nana and papa in their shoes?
What would they choose? Its been a cycle. A long one.
Not one you could live through after the first run.
Will my brothers even care if I don't make it?
What If I have kids and they get taken? This world would be mistaken if they thought my heart wasn't breaking.
As humans we take alot for granted.. But why don't we think of the seeds that we've planted?
Or the opportunities that we've landed? Back to the now and tomorrow and later.. Will I find a man who I don't have to cater?
A man I won't have to beg to stay.
We'd have kids, a home, and bills to pay. I know, I know.. I got carried away.
but just think about this.. My wedding day.
Without dad, who would give me away? I hope you know I don't blame you.
I don't blame dad.
I don't blame the paths you both suffered through.
I forgive you.
I hope this will release you..
Unlock all the doors you never had the keys to.