Sombras de un padre

Lyrics

[INTRO]
Don't think I'll ever trust a soul after you.
All that time I wasted waiting on you.
Paint the room, excited since I heard you was due.
I lost myself so confused, still don't know what to do.

[VERSE 1]
Lost a lotta time, like I skipped a couple days.
I tried to block y'all out my mind, it's like there ain't no fuckin way.
I had so many thangs that I just wanted to say.
Like how I wanted to stay, but feel like that I caint.
I knew in my heart that something wasn't right.
You said I ain't understand, but you wouldn't ever let me try.
When I left and I was ghost I swear I really set alone.
Think of ways that I could give you a place to call home.
Ya know?
Suddenly, there's strange things happening.
Feels like you attacking me, you hate me?
Why you mad at me?

[CHORUS]
It hurts, cause I ain't never know you.
I wish that we could lay one more time, so I could hold you.
Little baby low too.
It hurts, I can't be the dad I want to.
..
I miss y'all, think about y'all everyday.
Then get pissed off.
I'm sorry that I pushed away, listened to the thangs,
They'd say,
But they been wrong.
Cry Everytime , I see y'all's pics cause I'm......
Hurting...

[VERSE 2]
It's been crazy here alone, with my face glued to my phone.
Think of y'all, write a song,
Hoping that I'll get a call.
Thoughts that constantly revolve, got me curled up in a ball.
Like how I won't see Halo walk,
Or hear her voice when she talks.
I've cried so many nights,
Like being haunted by the why's?
Tried to die, like several times.
My heart and mind is just like us,
Cause all they do is fight.
Steps at a time, hoping I'll come out feeling fine.
A better guy than I was last time, a better father to my child.
I just hope y'all doin great,
And that you're finally okay...
..
[BRIDGE]
Why'd you do all of this shit to me?
Did you always play pretend with me?
Was that the plan all along?
Get what you want, get rid of me.
Hacked my phone, all our texts gone.
And time you've spent with me.
I'm tryna solve the mystery,
Fake all along? Or to get at me?
I swear on everythang, I'll figure out eventually.
..

[CHORUS]

[OUTRO]
Hey low,
My sweet little Halo.
Hope you're doing ok low.
My perfect little angel.
At least through this you'll know.
That I have loved you all along.
But I'm pretty sure I know,
Why mama left and ain't explain too.
I don't thank that I'm your father.
But still pray whoever's raising you.
Takes care of you.
I love and miss y'all.