A new story

Lyrics

Title: “Nest (Change the Story)”
[Hook]
I used to run from the silence, now I sit with the noise
Used to think I was abandoned, now I see I had a choice
That Boy Scout camp felt like goodbye, like a void
But now I know it was love masked as tough love deployed
I change the story, yeah, I rewrite the script
The pain don’t define me, it’s just part of the lift
I light one for the child who ain’t know what he missed
Now I’m back in the nest, where the soul got its gift
[Verse 1]
Fifteen, caught between manhood and mystery
Sent away, thought they ain’t want me, that’s history
That tent wasn’t exile, it was training for the fire
They sent me to the woods so I could build my empire
But I ain’t know that—felt like divorce papers
Felt like the womb said, “We done with you, later”
So I sparked up the green, tried to mother myself
Cannabis as comfort, searching for stealth wealth
Of belonging, of warmth, of that breast I ain’t get
Mom had the milk, but the hospital stole that sip
Jaundiced, jaundiced days, light leaking in the crib
Early detachment, I ain’t know how to live
[Hook]
I used to run from the silence, now I sit with the noise
Used to think I was abandoned, now I see I had a choice
That Boy Scout camp felt like goodbye, like a void
But now I know it was love masked as tough love deployed
I change the story, yeah, I rewrite the script
The pain don’t define me, it’s just part of the lift
I light one for the child who ain’t know what he missed
Now I’m back in the nest, where the soul got its gift
[Verse 2]
Dad had a fortress, but I ain’t know the blueprint
Felt like I was evicted when he gave me that tent
But now I decode it—his language was structure
Manhood in lessons, not in comforts that rupture
He saw a world coming fast, wanted me prepared
Didn’t see rejection—saw a father who cared
Mom did the best with the pieces she was given
Now I honor her effort, no more unforgiven
And I won’t escape now, I’ll feel it to heal
No more running from pain, I let it reveal
The truth underneath: I was never dismissed
I was baptized in hardship so I could exist
[Bridge]
Who am I if I always escape?
A ghost of a man, heart held in a cape
Now I face it, the fear, the ache, the wound
And I bloom in the dark like a flower in June
No more hunger that comfort can’t feed
I know now—my parents planted a seed
And it grew through the trauma, through grief, through regret
To a tree that forgives, with no need to forget
[Hook - Final Chorus]
I used to run from the silence, now I sit with the noise
Used to think I was abandoned, now I see I had a choice
That Boy Scout camp felt like goodbye, like a void
But now I know it was love masked as tough love deployed
I change the story, yeah, I rewrite the script
The pain don’t define me, it’s just part of the lift
I light one for the child who ain’t know what he missed
Now I’m back in the nest, where the soul got its gift