She Chose Herself

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[Verse 1] Got a bag by the doorway, Packed with every version I outgrew. All the times I made myself smaller Just to make more room for you. I been everybody’s safe place, Everybody’s call at 2 a.m., Funny how I knew how to save them, Couldn’t figure out how to choose me then. I kept asking, “What if?” Like the past might change its mind. Kept watering dead flowers, Calling patience “giving it time.” I loved hard, I stayed soft, Even when it cost me sleep. Now I’m learning being needed Ain’t the same as being seen. [Pre-Chorus] And I don’t hate who I was, She got me all the way here. But surviving ain’t enough When there’s a whole life waiting out there. [Chorus] So I’m walking through the doorway, Little scared, but I’m going anyway. Got my peace in my right hand, Left my people-pleasing where it lay. I want mornings that feel lighter, Love that don’t make me question my place. I’m not looking for somebody to save me— I finally came back for me. Same girl, Just healed in places nobody could see. Same heart, But everybody don’t get a key. If love finds me, let it find me free. If it don’t, I still got everything I need. I spent so long choosing everybody else… Baby, this time she chose herself. [Verse 2] I want stamps inside my passport, New cities underneath my feet. Wine poured while the sun goes down, No explaining why I need peace. Want a house that sounds like laughter, Money sitting where worry used to be. Want my daughter looking at me thinking, “That’s what choosing life can mean.” And maybe love comes knocking, Maybe one day I let it in. But he better come with something More than butterflies and promises. I know what half-love tastes like. I know what settling does. Next time somebody gets this heart, They’re gonna know exactly what it was worth. [Bridge] I’m leaving guilt on the floor. Leaving doubt by the door. Leaving every “not enough” I ever whispered to myself before. Taking my softness. Taking my fire. Taking these big-ass dreams And every damn desire. I don’t need a brand-new me— I like the woman I became. I just wanna give her everything She was too busy surviving to name. [Final Chorus] So I’m walking through the doorway, And the light looks good on my face. There’s a future with my name on it, And for once I’m not afraid. Give me healing, give me freedom, Give me memories I haven’t made. And whoever wants to walk beside me Better add something beautiful to my days. Same girl, Just softer where life made her hard. Same girl, Just finally protecting her heart. I’m not leaving myself behind again. That’s one promise I intend to keep. I spent so long choosing everybody else… Now look at me. I chose peace. I chose life. I chose dreams I put on the shelf. I chose tomorrow. I chose joy. And finally— I chose myself.