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RUNNING FROM MY OLD SELF Melodic pain rap • Conversational flow • Punchlines, double meanings, internal rhymes I can give it that slick, conversational pain-rap feel with layered wordplay, tight pockets, and melodic hooks, while keeping the lyrics original. [Intro — melodic, low voice] I been tryna get awayyyyy… From the person I became… Funny how I changed my ways… But still remember everythangggg… [Hook — melodic pain] I'm runnin' from the old me, he know all my hiding spots, I done made it out the bottom, still got trauma in the top. I was tryna heal my heart, kept giving people broken parts, I put my past behind me, why it still know where I'm parked? I done changed my whole direction, still got demons in the car, I was tryna reach the stars, got lost somewhere in the dark. I got everything I prayed for, still don't know who we are, I'm just tryna outrun who I was before I took it this farrrr… [Verse 1 — tight flow, punchline-heavy] I told myself I'm done with drugs, my old habits said, “Prove it,” I was looking for a way out, every wrong turn felt like movement. I got skeletons in closets, bought a house, still couldn't move 'em, I was running from my problems, cardio couldn't improve it. I done put my pride on layaway, still owe my soul an apology, Everybody see the change, don't nobody know the mileage. I was loyal to my demons, they ain't never show me honesty, I gave my pain a personality, now it act like it part of me. I had people praying I'd lose, I was helping with the funeral, Every loss became a lesson, now my scars look educational. I was drowning in my thoughts, told 'em all that I was cool, I was failing every test, but kept pretending I was through school. I done burned a couple bridges, had to swim across the blame, I was looking for somebody else, I was the problem in the frame. I can't blame it on my childhood every time I act the same, You can't keep calling it a cycle if you never change the lane. [Hook — stretched vocals] I'm runnin' from the old me, he know all my hiding spots, I done made it out the bottom, still got trauma in the top. I was tryna heal my heart, kept giving people broken parts, I put my past behind me, why it still know where I'm parked? I done changed my whole direction, still got demons in the car, I was tryna reach the stars, got lost somewhere in the dark. I got everything I prayed for, still don't know who we are, I'm just tryna outrun who I was before I took it this farrrr… [Verse 2 — quicker pockets, more wordplay] I made peace with being broke, now I'm rich in regrets, I was dodging all my feelings, they put warrants on my chest. I kept asking God for signs, ignored the ones I got addressed, I wanted answers from the heavens, wouldn't listen to my conscience. I was everybody's solid, couldn't keep myself together, Tried to change up with the seasons, brought my storm into the weather. I done lost some people forever, wish I treated them better, I was trying to make it rain, couldn't see I lost my umbrella. I was scared to face the truth, so I lied until it fit, Had a million-dollar future, kept investing in my sins. I was looking for forgiveness, still defending what I did, I wanted God to wash my hands, but kept reaching for the dirt. Now the old me want his spot back, tell him he ain't on the lease, I was making deals with pain, now I'm renegotiating peace. I done learned that being numb ain't the same thing as relief, I was scared of who I'd be without the hurt that made me me. And if I tell you that I'm healed, don't believe it off the strength, I'm just learning how to breathe without reliving every pain. I ain't proud of my past, but I ain't hiding it again, I can't change the man I was, but I can stop him from returning. [Outro — soft melodic singing] I'm still runninnnn… But I know what I'm running toward nowww… I can't keep blaming yesterday… For the choices I make right nowww… The old me know my weaknesses… But the new me know my worth… I spent my whole life tryna escape myself… Now I'm tryna save the person that I hurt…