I’m not okay

Lyrics

[INTRO]
I wish my mind would be still,
But it’s tumbling like a restless hill,
Enclosed and locked, heart sealed tight,
Echoing the slams that haunt my night.

[VERSE 1]
I’m anxious, I’m uncomfortable,
This weight inside feels insurmountable,
Miserable, a prisoner of my own design,
Living in the shadow of a heart that’s no longer mine.

[CHORUS]
Penance must be paid for the love that I stole,
You showed me the light, but I lost control,
Cold and alone, I sit in the rain,
Wishing that your warmth could lessen my pain.

[VERSE 2]
I wish there were more of you to hold,
A whisper of comfort in the love that turned cold,
To see you whole, no scars to weigh you down,
Just the light you bring, spinning softly 'round.

[BRIDGE]
But many do not know pure love’s embrace,
In a world so rough, it’s a sacred space,
Where genuineness cascades like a soft falling star,
Yet here I am hiding, feeling so far.

[CHORUS]
Penance must be paid for the love that I stole,
You showed me the light, but I lost control,
Cold and alone, I sit in the rain,
Wishing that your warmth could lessen my pain.

[VERSE 3]
I miss you; I pushed you away,
The blessing you were slipped further each day,
It’s hard to love myself when I run from the divine,
Spitting at the cosmos as I wallow in the line.

[CHORUS]
I’m not OK, but I hope this will pass,
I’m not OK, in a world made of glass,
I feel I’d find pleasure in swallowing the whole,
But what fills the void? It’s you—it's your soul.

[OUTRO]
I wish my mind would be still,
But I’m soldiering on through this rugged hill,
Seeking your light in the shadows I roam,
Hoping one day I’ll find my way home.