Lyrics

I'm a monster, a heartless piece of shit
guilty or the crimes the devil forced me to commit
Corruption runs deep, you think u know shit
hopfully you read this, so I can fill you in abit
speak my truth after I blow out my brains
confront all the souls whome i brought pain
Seen newborns snuffed and died with no names
innocence snuffed and tortured as if it’s a game
Haunted by faces of the lives that I claimed
Tried burying the truth, but the truth seems to stain
forced into picking up kids who’d run away
they all came with me in hopes of a place to stay
forced to bound and gag them while the elites would come and play
these kids clung on for for hours sometimes even days
their parents left to think they’d forever run away
or the baby ripped from his alive mothers womb
tortured infront of her and forced to consume
was told to eat or go the same way
If I didn't follow orders, my family would pay.
I should’ve stopped it, my mind always replays
the sound of desperation in their pleading voice-as
My conscience is screaming, (“THE DEVILS FKN WON”)
CANT SLEEP AT ALL ANYMORE
(“OH FUCK WHAT HAVE I DONE”)
writing this hands shaking in apprehension
the truth I be holding in my possession
ain't a suicide note, its a damn confession
my last and only attempt for redemption
Now I'm staring down the barrel, feelin' no hesitation
blood on my hands my motivation
that non stop Screaming in those Godforsaken places
So here's the ledger, the names, the dates, the places
things I couldn't share without recalling all their names and faces
maybe this will change things... or they still remain unfazed ‘n
the visions in my head there’s no fucking escaping
their pleading' to go back to the home they’d been escaping
ain't a cry for help, it's a final declaration
Against the suffocating silence, the brutal violation.
think they're untouchable, and we’re here for their fascination
But truth is a wildfire, threatening their cohabitation
If you find this letter than I’m already deceased
this is a battle you could help me beat
thinking of their eyes haunted with defeat
This world is a fucking nightmare, full of deciet
built their empire on the backs of all the weak
my silence is broken, I must finally speak
these demons all draped in designer fabric
working as your childrens paediatrics
im scared the truth will die with me tonight.
Maybe there's forgiveness, on the other side
Maybe there's a place where I can finally hide
im a fucking coward wish there was more I tried
my gun barrel's cold steel,
pressed against my temple
The devil's whispers to me
(“escaping ain’t that simple”)
I pull the trigger with a deafening rumble
my hearing and sight all suddenly muffled
fall to my knees face first i tumble
escaping this life that got me so troubled
Maybe in another life, I can redeem myself
maybe I don’t come back just go straight to hell
id ask for forgiveness but can’t forgive myself
this world is so fucking evil
no idea the depths the delve