Lyrics

[Verse 1]
I loved you when the world was small,
When you were freckles, fire, and fall.
Before the curves, before the dress,
You were everything I never could confess.
I stood in silence, hands in fists,
Afraid to break what never did exist.
But it did — it always did.
I just buried it like a scared kid.
[Verse 2]
You called me cold, and maybe I was,
But not for lack of love — because
I carried death inside my chest,
Counting breaths, denying rest.
I watched my mother fade like smoke,
And every word of love I spoke
Felt like a lie,
Because I couldn’t stop her from goodbye.
[Pre-Chorus]
So I pushed you to the edge,
Chose silence over pledge.
But every step you took from me
Was one I etched in memory.
[Chorus]
And now you're wearing white for him,
But this love has never dimmed.
I never stopped — I never could.
You were the only thing I understood.
So if there's one part of you that’s mine,
Please don’t say yes — not this time.
[Verse 3]
He gave you steadiness.
I gave you storms.
He offered safety.
I offered forms
of love too jagged to receive —
But truer than what you believe.
[Bridge – intimate, stripped back]
I saw you first —
not just the girl,
but the world beneath the girl.
The laugh behind the teeth.
The ache you hid beneath belief.
And if that’s not worth the war,
Then what the hell were we fighting for?
[Final Chorus – rising, desperate]
You're marrying comfort.
I am chaos, I know.
But he doesn’t know
how soft your silence goes.
He didn’t trace your dreams in sand.
He didn’t hold your shaking hand
when you thought you’d break —
I did.
I always did.
[Outro – breaking down, bare]
So here I am,
No armor, no defense.
Only love,
and consequence.
If there’s still a beat
in you for me…
Don’t say yes.
Say free.