Lyrics

[Verse 1 – You | Soft, wounded]
I’m not tryna fight, I just wanna be heard,
You shut down with silence, I drown in your words.
I open my heart just to get “ya” and “ok,”
Like I’m screaming in storms and you walk away.

You say you’re sorry, then disappear,
You push me out, then pull me near.
I keep holding space for the war inside you —
But I’m breaking too.

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[Pre-Chorus – You | Crescendo begins]
You say you’re not trying to hurt me,
But I’m bleeding from loving you quietly.
If you’re scared, just say it plain —
But don’t make me beg you to explain.

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[Chorus – You | Soaring and raw]
I can’t keep doing this,
Walking through your walls like they don’t exist.
You’re not a monster, but you won’t let me in,
And it’s tearing me apart again.
You don’t have to save me, just don’t pretend —
We’re okay when we’re not even friends.
I want to stay, but I’m built to break
If I keep carrying all of your weight.

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[Verse 2 – Carol (Interpretation) | Haunting female vocal or inner-voice sample]
I don’t know why I pull away,
I hate myself most days.
When I say “I’m fine,” it’s a cage I built,
And when you care, I only feel guilt.

I don’t mean to freeze or run,
It’s just what I’ve always done.
Don’t take it personal, please don’t try —
I’m scared to need and terrified.

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[Pre-Chorus – You (Answering back)]
I don’t want perfect — I want real.
But I can’t fix what you won’t feel.
If this is love, then speak its name —
I won’t stay inside your shame.

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[Chorus – You | Bigger, more urgent]
I can’t keep doing this,
Waiting in the dark for a hopeful twist.
You’re not heartless, but you shut me down,
And I’m gasping in the silence now.
I want to stay, but I’m built to break
If I’m the only one who shows up each day.

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[Bridge – Spoken/half-sung, breaking down emotionally]
I don’t wanna leave.
But I don’t wanna disappear in your shadows.
I won’t beg for your love —
But I deserve to know if you even want it.

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[Final Chorus – Full band, orchestral swell]
I can’t keep doing this,
Holding on to almost, call it bliss.
You said “I’m sorry,” but never change,
And I’m stuck in this silent cage.
I want to stay, but I’m built to break —
You can’t love me and still push me away.

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[Outro – Whispered/soft piano]
I was never asking you to be whole…
Just to let me hold your hand through the hell.
But I can’t keep doing this…
If I’m breaking by myself.