Lyrics

First Episode
(Reflecting on early experiences with bipolar and schizophrenia)
Verse 1:
It started on a quiet day, calm before the quake,
Thoughts racing through a still sky, no breaks.
Barely knew my own reflection, it felt so strange,
Like my mind slipped gears, rearranged.
Faces in the crowd started calling my name,
Echoes bouncing back like a cruel mind game.
One moment I’m flying, next I’m in chains,
Lost in a storm where nothing remains.
Chorus:
First episode, the first crack in the frame,
Didn’t know who I was, didn’t know my name.
The world got loud, my senses came undone,
And the fight for my mind had just begun.
Verse 2:
Doctors with their clipboards, their eyes so cold,
Writing down stories that I never told.
Family looking worried, but they can’t see inside,
The chaos, the colors, the never-ending ride.
Trying to pin down a feeling, trying to catch my breath,
Every fleeting second felt closer to death.
But deep in the spiral, a voice still called,
“Keep going, keep fighting,” I heard it through the walls.
Chorus:
First episode, the first crack in the frame,
Didn’t know who I was, didn’t know my name.
The world got loud, my senses came undone,
And the fight for my mind had just begun.
Bridge:
It’s not a movie, no clear-cut end,
No neat resolution, no hand to lend.
But through the static, through the dark despair,
I found the strength to stand, to care.
First episode didn’t break me, no,
It shook me, woke me, made me grow.
Final Chorus:
First episode, the first crack in the frame,
Didn’t know who I was, didn’t know my name.
The world got loud, my senses came undone,
But this fight for my mind has just begun.
Outro:
Now I carry the scars, but I wear them proud,
A reminder of the silence before the crowd.
First episode wasn’t the end, just a start,
A chapter in a story, a piece of my heart