Lyrics

[Intro] Yeah Not every roadman smiles 'cause life’s calm Sometimes pain’s just fucking silent bruv Its in the eyes and thats what no one sees. Except one mans, dat man you cant face in the mirror. Truth. Fuck the rest.

[Verse 1] Posted on ends with a face like stone But inside man’s breakin’, pain in my dome Darg dem don’t see what I carry at night Gotta look cold or I’m gone from sight
They don't rate no man who cry So I stack my tears deep inside Every move’s just pressure, maskin' stress 'Cause if I fall off, they’ll cut me next
Three-year-old daughter, need nappies, food But this lifestyle got me in a risky mood I can’t work Tesco — that’s shame on road Rather die tryin’ than wear that code
Crew think I’m solid, the loudest in war But deep down, I don’t wanna ride no more Dream of sleepin' and not wakin’ again But the block don’t rate weakness in men

[Hook] Hide my tears in the back of the ride But the pain don’t leave — it’s stuck inside If I quit now, will they feed my kid? If I break down, will they take the piss?
Trap got me numb, but I stay on code Can't show fear or the mandem fold But the truth is dark and the end feels near One wrong move, I disappear

[Verse 2] Now it’s court dates, cuffs on wrist Used to grip mic, now I’m grippin’ lists Solicitor sayin’, "hope for bail" But inside I know I might end in jail
My daughter’s face on a crumpled pic Voice in my head sayin’, "you fucked it, prick" Could’ve walked, could’ve worked that till Instead I’m locked, missin’ bedtime still
Mandem moved on, don’t ring my line No more 'fam' when you doin’ time No food on the table, no light, no sound Just grey walls and a cellmate round

[Hook – Repeat] Hide my tears in the back of the ride But the pain don’t leave — it’s stuck inside If I quit now, will they feed my kid? If I break down, will they take the piss?
Trap got me numb, but I stay on code Can't show fear or the mandem fold But the truth is dark and the end feels near One wrong move, I disappear

[Outro] Now I sit in this cell, head low, no plan Dreamin’ of my girl while I wash my hands normal job would've hurt my pride But at least I'd see her every night
I masked my pain till it turned to chains Now the road's behind me, but so's the game Don’t wait till you're gone to see what’s true Pain don’t make you weak — it just makes you you it, just makes you you