Almost There

Lyrics

I was almost there, I saw your face
In a crowded street, in a quiet place
I had planned to come, just grab that form
But pain rose sudden, like a coming storm
You were laughing, maybe breaking bread
I was holding something else instead
A secret pain I didn’t want to show
So I turned around, and let you go
I never meant to leave you in the dark
Didn’t mean to leave a mark
You worried, and I never called
But I was hurting through it all
It wasn’t you, it’s just my fight
A silent war I hide from light
But maybe soon the pain will fade
And I can meet you unafraid
I sat in the car with trembling hands
Didn’t think you’d ever understand
Bleeding fears and hospital lights
I faced alone those heavy nights
A growing shadow deep inside
Doctors say it won’t subside
Till they remove what makes me whole
But I’ll be free, I’ll take control
I live each day like it’s the last
No time to linger in the past
So when I’m near you, everything speeds
I chase the joy my body needs
I want it all — the laughs, the fire
Every glance, each small desire
There’s no slow-motion in my soul
When time feels borrowed, you go full
I never meant to leave you in the dark
Didn’t mean to leave a mark
You worried, and I never called
But I was hurting through it all
It wasn’t you, it’s just my fight
A silent war I hide from light
But maybe soon the pain will fade
And I can meet you unafraid
If I could turn the clocks around
I’d have told you what I found
That something broke inside that day
And I just didn’t know what to say
I wanted only good for you
But life got loud and pulled me through
Maybe one day, in some new sun
We’ll meet again when pain is gone