Conditional Love

Lyrics

You say it's my fault. i pushed us to the edge. we've been teetering on that ledge for too long. I guess in your eyes, I was just the devil in disguise. You can't help but see the bad parts of me. I guess I'm diseased. Not good for anything but the lies I've made you believe. You hate all that I am, I guess that's what's hard for me to understand, this was not what we planned. how can you love me if you hate the woman I am? Do you really think my love for you was nothing more than a lie and a scam. I sometimes forget when I love you rolls so easily off you tongue, I forget your mouth's a loaded fuckin gun. You tell me all the time with disgust filled eyes you have never told me no lies, no secrets you hide... you've always been down for the ride but baby.... you told the biggest LIE of all. You promised for better or worse. You promised no more heartache and pain, days left crying and feeling insane. You promised you loved who I am. besideme you'd stand. You'd never let go of my hand or leaving me question all that I am. I'm feeling hopeless inside, this panic and shame, is an endless refrain. i hold myself in constant distain. You promised unconditional love, but that love comes with conditions that you promised it wouldn't.
You say it's my fault, I feel the weight on my chest,
We were standing on that ledge, never knowing the rest,
In your eyes, I’m the devil, a shadow in your light,
Now I’m lost in this pain, with no end in sight.
You can't see the good, only the wounds that I wear,
But deep down inside, I’m still gasping for air.
You said you loved me, but love comes with chains,
Through tears and the fire, I’m drowning in pain,
Unconditional vows were cast in the dark,
But all I’m left with is the silence, a spark.
You say that you hate me, but I gave you my all,
Was it really a choice, or were we destined to fall?
You whisper your i love you's like sweet poison in dreams,
But all of your promises burst at the seams.
You told me forever, but what does it mean?
When love's turned to ashes, and life’s just a scream.
You said you loved me, but love comes with chains,
Through tears and the fire, I’m drowning in pain,
Unconditional vows were cast in the dark,
But all I’m left with is the silence, a spark.
[Outro]
I’m clinging to shadows, chased by your ghost,
In an endless refrain, it’s you I miss the most.