Lyrics

[Intro – Whispered]
Jackie thought she was slick with it...
Glass in her hand, smile on her lips...
But demons don’t hide long... they drink with you.

[Verse 1]
Jackie had gin in her teacup,
Vodka in the flask with a weak bluff.
Eyes too glassy to read trust,
But she swore on her life she was cleaned up.

Husband clocked every stumble,
Heard her lie with a mouth so humble.
Swore she ain’t drinkin’ — he knew she was,
Sippin’ that poison while she fucking pregs bruv.

Miracle child, came out fine,
But the damage was deeper than bloodline.
He held the baby with fear in his chest,
Prayed to God it ain’t show in time.

[Hook]
She fooled herself, not them,
Played that part till it snapped and then —
Three-month baby, court said when
You fix your soul, you can try again.

But the bottle talks loud in the silence,
And the lies got wrapped in kindness.
Too late now when the hurt been dealt,
She walked alone, 'cause she drank herself.

[Verse 2]
Restraining order, dreams get locked,
Mum with a baby she barely clocks.
Two years grindin’ — no sips, no shots,
Rebuilt her soul from every block.

Meetings, rehab, journals full,
Faced her truth till her hands went dull.
Held that chip with a prayer and pain,
Just hopin’ one day she could see her name.

18 months of the sober life,
Pulled up clean with a heart so light.
Knocked that door with her chest held high,
But fate don’t bend just 'cause you try.

[Hook – Variation]
She fooled herself, not them,
Played that part till it snapped and then —
Saw her child but the love felt strange,
Ran away like she carried pain.

New girl answered, calm and bright,
Her own kid took one look, fled from sight.
She turned around, lost in shame,
Too little, too late — no one to blame.

[Outro – Echoed]
If only she changed before the scars…
Now she drinks not from bottles, but from memory jars.
And somewhere... that child forgets her face.
Jackie — gone without a trace.