Lyrics

I take the bait
and each and every time
i encapsulate this great hate
get sucked into what I pretend a “blind date”
where I’m crated overnight
not to lose the hold of this mold.
I was castrated by my own damn hands
fucking checkmate
time for another clean slate
it’s been a while.
i can’t pretend the story.
Our story wasn’t divinely curated
but just through affiliation
the accumulated long awaited backdated shit so fucking jaded
had me all types of fucked up,
but that’s an understatement.
Don’t get me started on the false statements and bank statements,
man I was a damn momma to this boy
but I know I know I learned my lessons
they left fucking spiritual lesions.
Our confessions led to miscalculated obsessions
head full of stresses guesses to successes,
throwing on my dresses now
from accessor to possessor to a damn near aggressor
it’s all right just expressions
before the forthcoming repossessions
lol I digress
shit leaves an undeniable imprint.
I admit I also screwed up
with being too strict with this damn script that I ironically picked, I just couldn’t resist.
I used the wishbone.
It didn’t predict the stripped heart bone
that after four years I believed was beyond enriched
to realize it was bare.
I believed I wasn’t prepared.
What do I have to compare?
I’m rare… and this.. that…
was bullshit.
I reversed my castration
slowly growing my balls back
sorry backbone, more “ladylike?”
it’s all right. I’m glad I’m back at the square. Finally turning to blank pages daily.
No more playing me, slaying me, taming me, begging to see me, most importantly no more failing me.
I come before you all today
with you all as testimony witnesses
to the oath, I take and hold with myself
that each day, will never repeat.
here i am today!
Open mind open heart open soul with naked baked honest to God raw open truth.
luckily i’ve always lead my life that way
living my life consciously
with modesty
never wanna be part of a negative self-fulfilli