Lyrics

[Verse 1]
So I journaled about us in my trauma notebook
Right after spin class and two glasses of wine
I said “He’s the ghost of the men I attract”
Then underlined it four times.
I called Joya, cried for forty minutes
Then saged my kitchen with resentment and thyme
Told Keith I’m done with your energy, truly
But then I texted you at 9:09

[Verse 2]
You didn’t reply, which was classic and cruel
So I reread our texts from last July
You said “I’m with you off the hook” — what a line
It’s giving… coward, but poetic guy
So I paced the yard, told my neighbor “He’s broken”
She said “girl, that man is art supplies and spite”
I nodded once, then I blocked you again
Out of self-love. And basic rights.

[Chorus – hands in the air, crying at the steering wheel]
But this is me reaching out
(But also blaming you again)
I’d say “let’s talk,” but only if I win
And I know it sounds loving
To say I’m praying too
But really I’m praying
That you admit it was you

[Bridge – echoing like a TikTok filter of a breakup therapist]
You said it was “a smile and some space”
But I smiled so hard my jaw unhinged
And gave you SO much space
You could’ve parked a trauma van between us
So whose fault is it really
When you disappear?
(Answer: Yours.
Obviously.
I did the work.
Did you?)

[Verse 3 – late-night coffee and self-righteous clarity]
I tried to keep things grown and sacred
Sent a meme, yes, but it was spiritual rage
You sent me one back — childish and rude
So I told everyone: “He’s off the stage.”
But now I miss your metaphors
Your weird-ass words, your lonely grace
So here’s this bag of closure bread
Tossed softly at your face.

[Final Chorus – shakily harmonized with wounded dignity]
This is me reaching out
(It might not sound that way)
I just want you to feel what I feel when you pull away
No, I’m not okay
But yes, I’m still proud
So if you respond with silence
I’ll scream into a cloud

[Outro – whispered from the closet floor]
So take care, or don’t
You’re probably in Honolulu
I’ll heal from this
In a week.
…Or two.
…Or never.
Text me?