Lyrics

[Intro] (soft, spoken delivery, layered FX: lo-fi, vinyl crackle)

(whispered)
Can’t sleep again…
Feels safe, but it’s not.
Mind don’t rest…
Only the body drops.

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🎤 [Chorus] (hook melody, emotional autotune, layered harmonies L/R + low octave)

Main
I can’t sleep, the silence cut too deep (yeah)
Feels like peace, but it buries me beneath (ugh)
Old scars, old fights, they play in my mind (mind, mind)
Like I’m stuck in a war I left behind (left behind)
PTSD got me fightin’ in my dreams (in my dreams)
OCD got me stuck on what it means (what it mean?)
I swear I’m tryin’ just to find release (tryna breathe)
But even in the quiet, I can’t sleep at peace (nah)

(Ad-libs: “yeah…”, “ugh…”, “mind…”, “tryna breathe…”)
[Use soft echo/delay FX after “peace”]


🎤 [Verse 1] (mid-pitched cadence, emotional glide; alternate between melody and spoken rap)

I don’t chase sleep, I wait for stillness
That part of the night when I don’t feel illness
But it never lasts — it turns real quick
Old pain hit like a backhanded hit
Flinch at sounds that never exist
Always on edge, I tighten my fist
Check the lock, then I check it again
Just to silence what’s yellin’ within

OCD make me question love
PTSD got me duckin’ hugs
Rewind scenes that already passed
Talkin’ to ghosts of a younger past
They tell me “move on,” I nod my head
But every night I relive what was said
They see calm, I see chaos in waves
I break down in the most subtle ways

(Ad-libs: “real quick…”, “again…”, “ugh…”, “nod my head…”)
[End last line with delay trail on “ways”]

[Chorus]

(Repeat same structure as first, but slightly more energy/emotion)
I can’t sleep, the silence cut too deep
Feels like peace, but it buries me beneath
Old scars, old fights, they play in my mind
Like I’m stuck in a war I left behind
PTSD got me fightin’ in my dreams
OCD got me stuck on what it means
I swear I’m tryin’ just to find release
But even in the quiet, I can’t sleep at peace

(Ad-libs: “fightin’…”, “ugh…”, “can’t sleep…”)
[Let reverb build near the end of the hook into the bridge]mo

[Bridge – 8 bars] (light harmony, melodic; pause between lines for drama)

Let me breathe, even if it breaks me
Let me feel, even if they hate me
Tired of hidin’ to make ‘em stay
I lost myself along the way
I need truth, not pretty lies
I need time, not alibis
If I fade while bein’ real
At least I die knowin’ I healed

(Ad-libs: “even if…”, “yeah…”, “real…”)
[Reverb swell on “healed” into chorus drop]

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[Final Chorus] (Add vocal doubles + slight growl/more pressure in voice)

I can’t sleep, the silence cut too deep
Feels like peace, but it buries me beneath
Old scars, old fights, they play in my mind
Like I’m stuck in a war I left behind
PTSD got me fightin’ in my dreams
OCD got me stuck on what it means
I swear I’m tryin’ just to find release
But even in the quiet, I can’t sleep at peace

(Ad-libs: “dreams…”, “can’t sleep…”, “ugh…”)