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Hey Caleb, how’s it going?
Or is it 정키 now?
I don't know how far back I'm talking to you

Have you had your first panic attack yet?
집을 도망친 적 있니?
Has your father become sick yet?
너는 엄마의 감정 주먹받이 됐니?

Take a walk with me, this'll only take a moment, okay?
But I have to warn you, the topic isn't great,
These is your future, what youre going to see, and I'm going to say,
Slow me down and tell be to stop if you need to take a break,

You remember that time when you and 엄마 fought each other,
then your heart started to race and your vision pulsed?
숨이 막혀, 질식할 것 같았지?
Your stomach quenched and you felt repulsed?

You dont remember that? Must be younger than I thought,
Well after that you'll yell at her to stop, to get away from you,
It wasnt this intense all the other times you fought,
She'll walk away and you'll run outside, falling in the grass covered in dew,

You'll feel dizzy and confused, afraid you might actually die,
Then you'll call your best friend, trying to find some sense of security,
화가 날 거야, 엄마가 널 들어줄 단 한 번은
It’s to walk away from you when you're supposed to be her priority,

Is this getting too much? Lets change the topic,
In about two years after youre going to run away from home,
You'll stay with your best friend who still lives at home,
Where his parents will judge you want you out of their home,
Then You'll get a call from your mother to come back,
Your father went to the doctor and was hit with a diagnosis,
뇌암, 말기, 4기 판정 받았어 (Brain cancer, stage four, that's terminal you hear?)
Did you know depending on where it grows it causes psychosis?
He'll lose his truck and he'll play with lighters,
He'll lose his mind and he'll play with paper,
He'll lose his ability to walk and he'll play with buttons,
걷지도 못해도, 버튼을 만질 거야

That's the scariest part, and you'll take care of him, and you'll do it well,
You'll get so good at treating his wounds that hospital neglect gave to him,
You'll become more angry because people who are supposed to save him are trying to kill him instead,
넌 알았지, 오래 못 산다는 걸,
but that doesn’t mean they have to push him to his grave sooner!

This is when you'll become 엄마 emotional punching bag,
You and your sister will grow closer under the emotional abuse,
You were never close in the past, I know, but this tragedy will help,
The stress and fear will drive you together, and then you'll be hit with an opportunity you cant refuse