Cold Tea & Gray Memories

Lyrics

My tea’s gone cold, I’m wondering why
I got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
And I can’t see at all
And even if I could, it’d all be gray
But your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it’s not so bad
It’s not so bad

Dear Grace, I wrote you, but you still ain’t callin’
I know you’re probably hurt, or maybe just stallin’
I get it, though—you hide when things go wrong
You smile for them, but you’ve been breaking all along
I ain’t mad; I just wish you’d been real
Instead of chasing strangers just to numb what you feel
I guess I saw it coming but ignored the sign
Blinded by the hope you’d find some peace of mind
Remember late nights, talkin’ ‘bout your pain?
The weight of what you held from your mom’s shame?
Said you’d never be like her, but here we are
Burnin’ bridges just to cover up the scars
Anyway, I hope you’re good, I guess that’s fair
Even though I still feel you everywhere
It’s crazy how the past won’t let me be
But I’m not who I was, and you ain’t next to me

My tea’s gone cold, I’m wondering why
I got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
And I can’t see at all
And even if I could, it’d all be gray
But your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it’s not so bad
It’s not so bad

Hey Grace, I saw your name flash up today
Had me wonderin’ what the hell I’d even say
Would you lie, or cry, or just act tough?
Pretend that losing us wasn’t rough?
I still get flashbacks of that night
Phone screen glowing in the dim light
Your words to him—like I never mattered
That trust we built, just torn and shattered
I know you hate yourself for what you did
But you can’t outrun the truth you hid
I hope you find peace, but I can’t be there
Givin’ you love you never learned to share
I’ve moved on, but yeah, some nights still hit
When I remember how we used to fit
But what’s gone is gone, and time won’t bend
Guess some stories don’t get the perfect end

My tea’s gone cold, I’m wondering why
I got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
And I can’t see at all
And even if I could, it’d all be gray
But your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it’s not so bad
It’s not so bad

Dear Grace, I heard you’ve been doin’ worse
Still carryin’ that same old curse
Validation through the wrong kind of eyes
Never learned to see through your own disguise
I ain’t bitter, just tired of the game
The cycle of heartbreak with a different name
I wanted to save you, but it ain’t my fight
You gotta choose to step into the light
So here’s my last letter, I’m lettin’ go
No more ghosts from the life I used to know
I wish you well, even if you don’t find it
The love you need was always inside it
Goodbye, Grace—this chapter’s closed
What comes next? Only God knows

My tea’s gone cold, I’m wondering why
I got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
And I can’t see at all
And even if I could, it’d all be gray
But your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it’s not so bad
It’s not so bad