Lyrics

If you're hearing this… maybe I’m gone
Not 'cause I wanted to, just couldn’t hold on
I was tired of smiling when it burned inside
Tired of saying “I'm okay” when I barely survived

I played the strong one, kept it all locked in
Cried in silence, wiped my own skin
Held my breath just to make them proud
But every step felt like screaming out loud

I lost my best friend – he took his own life
Since then, I’ve been stuck in a war every night
Not with the world, but deep in my head
Some days I’m alive, some days I’m dead

[Hook – melodic rap / soft vocal flow]
Tell my brother I gave him my light
Tell my sister she saved me some nights
Tell my mom that I carried her pain
And I never saw her love as a chain
Tell my dad that I needed a hand
Not just advice — just someone who’d understand
If I ever fall, don’t say I gave up
Just say I gave all I had… and it wasn’t enough

[Verse 2]
There were nights I laid still, heartbeat slow
Felt the tears fall, but I’d never let 'em show
Everyone thought I was doing alright
But they didn’t hear me praying for peace at night

I was the one who checked if you ate
But skipped my meals, said “nah, I’m straight”
I was the laugh in your darkest hour
But alone I’d crumble, lose all my power

Depression ain't sadness, it's empty space
It’s smiling while your mind’s a haunted place
And even when life feels kinda okay
There’s still that fear it’ll all slip away

[Hook – repeated softer, almost whispered]
Tell my brother I gave him my light
Tell my sister she saved me some nights
Tell my mom that I carried her pain
And I never saw her love as a chain
Tell my dad that I needed a hand
Not just advice — just someone who’d understand
If I ever fall, don’t say I gave up
Just say I gave all I had… and it wasn’t enough

[Bridge – Spoken over soft piano / strings]
I didn’t want to leave.
I just wanted the pain to.
I held on for so long…
But even fire burns out when there’s no more fuel.

If I don’t make it to the end,
Let them know…
It wasn’t their fault.
It was just too heavy.

[Outro – Soft Flow / Fade Out]
Bury my name with the songs I wrote
Let my words be the air in your throat
I was broken, but I loved with fire
Even when life pulled me down to the wire

If I ever fall…
Just remember: I fought
And somewhere beyond this —
I finally got caught
By peace.