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"I’m fine.” That’s what I say.
'Cause it’s easier to lie than explain the pain
Can't talk to my fam, can't talk to my friends
I power through, fake strength, pretend

Every time I stand, life hits harder than before But I smile, I laugh, I put my face to the floor They say, “hey You okay? You don’t seem right.” I say “I’m Fine,” and I hide it every night

Tried to tell Dad—he just shut the door
Tried to tell Mom—she said, “It could be Worse, you have no idea how bad it can Get son”
Like pain’s got minimum requirement, a weight, a score, But I’m drowning inside, can’t take much more

You don’t need to hit bottom to break
You don’t need to bleed for the pain to be fake
You are real, and your soul still breathes
You are more than the scars they can’t see

I’M FINE, I’M FINE, I SCREAM TO SURVIVE!
A HEART THAT’S ALIVE!
I STARE DOWN THE DARK, I WON’T LET IT WIN!
I WON’T GIVE IN, I WON’T GIVE IN!

I PUSH BACK, EVEN WHEN IT HURTS TO BREATHE
I’M STILL HERE — AND I’M CHOOSING ME!
SO IF YOU HEAR ME SCREAMING THROUGH THE NIGHT
I’M NOT OKAY — BUT I’M STILL GONNA FIGHT!

My friends can see I’ve changed, but I say nothing—
There’s only one I wish could know.
I cared too deeply, pushed too hard,
And now she’s slipping further away.

Loving someone who can’t love you back—
It’s a quiet ache, a hollow crack,
A hope that fades but still holds tight,
A shadow chasing fading light.

She’ll never be mine — the hardest truth.
I want her still, but the pain proves:
Even when hearts feel warm and kind,
Sometimes they’re not yours — and that’s just fine.

Alone in my room, cigar and a thought
Gun on the table… don’t know what I’ve got
I whisper to the dark: “Is this how it ends?”
But I see their faces—the one that I love, my family

And friends too, in the back of my mind
The ones who would break if I left them behind
What if my pain becomes their weight?
What if I die and it seals their fate?

So I drop the gun, put my head to the ground,
Shedding tears for the pain that I have known.
Not today, not now — I turn it around.
I won’t give up — my soul won’t back down.

I’M FINE! NO, SCREW THAT, I’M HURTING INSIDE!
BUT I WON’T LET GO, I REFUSE TO HIDE!
I’LL FIGHT FOR MYSELF, I’LL ROAR AND I’LL BLEED!
I’LL LIVE FOR THE ONES WHO STILL BELIEVE!

PUSH BACK! EVEN IF YOU’RE BROKE AND BRUISED!
SCREAM OUT — YOU’VE GOT NOTHING TO LOSE!
SAY IT LOUD TO THE NIGHT, TO THE VOID, TO THE SKY—
"I WILL NOT FAIL, I WILL NOT DIE!"

I love my life and those in it—
The battles, the blessings, every minute.
I’m still here… I’m not finished, not done,
There’s more to fight for, more to become.

So if the weight feels too heavy tonight,
If the silence is loud and the dark steals your light—
Come find me, we’ll scream through the Night,
Let it out loud, like thunder and rain.

Together we rise, together we cry,
Together we heal, we don’t have to lie.
We are the fire

PUSH BACK. PUSH BACK. PUSH BACK. WE WILL SURVIVE. I SAID PUSH BACK. PUSH BACK. PUSH BACK
WE WILL SURVIVE!