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Dear god,
As I watched one last breath I saw that I had a lot of time but not much left. Mama in hospital which comes next, now I’m traumatized by what those doctors had said, you might have to choose the decision that hospice might be next! Lord I didn’t want you to take the only thing on that side that I had left. Her heart rate beats out of step, heart rate too high pressure much less induce in a coma to protect what’s left. Looking in the doctor’s eyes noticing that they saw what’s next, not much hope not much left trying to prepare us for what is next. I fell into an abyss to think about what I have to miss. Another final goodbye, why again? Why close in time? Two close in my heart too close in time what did I do to deserve all of this? The family prayed, You saw my sorrow as I wept than preformed a miracle gave my mom life and me a second chance.

This is my testimony, god I love and trust will protect me with peace and harmony. Was lost but with his grace I feel holy, not a chance for a second do I feel lonely. Spread my love I testify before I die to live with him and my family in eternity, by his grace I place my faith. In my testament I say it loud and proud that god I love you, thank you for your saving grace.

Dear god,
I know that I messed up a lot in the past I know that I had truly turned my back. It was December 8th on the 24th sitting my living room with the one that you have blessed. Truly lost with no paradise in my head. anxiety at a maximum press, satan tried to use my mind with no regrets. Scared and wondering when I die what could be next? We talked about our lives and looked around the earth that you have blessed. Not man made that is obvious. the earth, the heavens Everything you have sanctified to watch our steps. Is earth just one big test or a visit to see what comes next. I don’t really know… but as mystery sinks into my soul looking at the sins that i had did, from this step what to come next, give them up to seek your love before my last breath, no more curse words, no more lust, no more lies, only trust. All of these sins I must confess to the ones I love even if it feels like a bullet hole within my chest.

This is my testimony god I love and trust will protect me with peace and harmony. Was lost but with his grace I feel holy, not a chance for a second do I feel lonely. Spread my love I testify before I die to live with him and my family in eternity, by his grace I place my faith. In my testament I say it loud and proud that god I love you, thank you for your saving grace.