Lyrics

Met you back in twenty-one, late November
Messages turned into flames I’ll remember
Just a screen between us, but hearts already near
Fell too fast, but I never feared
By April, I saw you for the very first time
Heartbeat racing, your lips met mine
You gave me that bear from when you were a kid
I kept it close, even if I never did
Cling to plush – it’s love that I held
Every walk, every touch, every word that we felt
Hand in hand, cigarette in the breeze
People stared, but with you, I was free

[Hook / Refrain]
Tell me why it had to fade away
Tell me what I did to make you change
Tell me, was it real or just a game?
Tell me, do you ever feel the same?

Tell me why I still can't let you go
Tell me why your name still haunts me so
Tell me, did you mean it when you swore
We’d hold on – and not close the door?

[Verse 2]
Second time, a year and a half in
More open, more touch, more within
Laughed through streets, TikToks and smoke
Hugs that healed every word we spoke
My body ain’t what I wish it to be
But you saw the soul underneath the skin in me
You were patient, let me bloom in your arms
And for a moment, the world lost its harm
Even my siblings, even my mom
Said he’s good for you, keep him calm
But silence grew loud, and lies came back
You left, then returned, then drifted off track
Till one day I saw you with someone new
That broke me more than I ever knew

[Hook / Refrain]
Tell me why it had to fade away
Tell me what I did to make you change
Tell me, was it real or just a game?
Tell me, do you ever feel the same?

Tell me why I still can't let you go
Tell me why your name still haunts me so
Tell me, did you mean it when you swore
We’d hold on – and not close the door?

[Bridge – Spoken Word Vibe]
You said you’d leave this world tonight
Wrote me words I never wanted to write
For hours I waited, shattered and numb
Praying this wasn't the end of your run
When you texted "I'm safe" from the station seat
I collapsed in tears, shaking in relief
I yelled, I cried, I begged you to stay
Don’t you ever throw yourself away
Even after all the lies and the scars
You're still the boy I loved under the stars

[Outro Verse]
So maybe I hate you, but not enough
To want you gone, even when it’s tough
Three years, half apart, I still feel you here
In every ache, in every tear
And maybe we’re not meant to be
But damn, you’re forever a part of me

[Final Refrain – Stripped back]
Tell me why it had to fade away
Tell me what I did to make you change
Tell me, was it real or just a game?
Tell me, do you ever feel the same?

Tell me why I still can't let you go
Tell me why your name still haunts me so
Tell me, did you mean it when you swore
We’d hold on – and not close the door?