Find the Brakes

लिरिक्स

[Intro] Father Christos, forgive me for the wrong I’ve done I’m trying to find the brakes before I come undone [Verse 1] Apocalyptic mindset, wasteland in my head Like I’m driving through the dust with the world painted red We outta whack—maybe shots, maybe fear, maybe facts Everybody got a theory, everybody talks back Gen X grew up where the hard talk came fast Bad cats, mad straps, old scars that last Hip-hop, gang culture—yeah, that’s a sad fact I can’t watch TV, it’s too soft, flap-jacks [Chorus] Christos, forgive me, I’m still learning to change Got a storm in my chest and a match to my rage From the dirt to the door, let the old days pass God sees more than the numbers on a balance sheet’s glass [Verse 2] Meager beginnings, grew up with poor scraps Counted out early, but God didn’t use your math Christos blessed, pulling up with flavor at the door I was short on a lot, still I’m reaching for more Working on my temper, I’m an Aries, you know Warpath in my wiring, trying not to let it show I’ve made my share of choices I can’t take back Now I’m facing every one, putting truth on the track [Chorus] Christos, forgive me, I’m still learning to change Got a storm in my chest and a match to my rage From the dirt to the door, let the old days pass God sees more than the numbers on a balance sheet’s glass [Bridge] I don’t need another fight to prove I’m still here I need a steadier hand when the whole road veers If I’ve got one more chance, let me use it right Turn the heat in my blood into work, not a fight [Verse 3] No saint in the mirror, no crown, no disguise Just a man taking inventory, looking inside I was raised on the edge where the loud ones survived Now I’m learning that restraint is a way to stay alive So I pray for the lost and I speak for the past Keep the lesson, drop the weight, let the worst days pass Christos, hear me when I’m trying to make peace Not perfect, not finished—just asking for release [Outro] Father Christos, forgive me for the wrong I’ve done I’m trying to find the brakes before I come undone