Lyrics

Had I’d known how this would end
I would’ve taken you out instead of keeping me in
I put myself first, tire of coming in last
But you paid the price for the cost of my past

I don’t regret falling for you
Still asking myself if it was too good to be true
Was it my pride that
Kept me in silence
Knowing eventually, it’d keep us divided
While my heart was screaming
The whole time that you needed
Someone just to hold you, to listen, without any reason
Other than out of love, passion, or intimate meaning

Instead I stole your voice
Pushed you away
Then questioned your motives
As your love began to fade

Despite all the warnings
I was ignoring
I left your heart shattered
As I scattered your ashes at dusk
While I was in mourning….

You will never see me the same
Like the knight that would rescue your day
Now just the darkness that eclipses your rays
As you’re forced to stay
Because you’ve invested everything to save
Me from my self-destructive ways

Don’t get me wrong
I remain confused
How a love so strong
Seemed so easy to lose
Stolen so quickly
So swiftly
Leaving me with this hole that feels so empty

Dead inside
Unable to cry
Or hide
from who’s seeking to destroy me this time
Rob me blind
Just to take what was mine
Not only her, but also my peace of mind

Who am I kidding
I was never enough for her
Or for me
Fore when his kingdom come, where will I be
Alone and forgotten,
Suffrage and rotten
I’m so frightened this thought I’m
Pale white, like this cotton
I wear on this body, that covers my bottom
But fails to conceal, only exposes my flaws when
I’m out and about
Or alone at my house.
I will never escape what is keeping my light from getting out.