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December 18th
The day my heart betrayed my mind.
You smiled— and without warning,
I fell into a love that was never meant to be mine.
Not yours to give,
And without even knowing,
You held the reins to my every emotion —
I gave you that power,
Thinking love meant surrender.
Now I sit with the echoes —
Old messages, frozen laughter, And a broken heart..

Yeah, I’m fine—that’s what I say.
But nobody sees the ache I carry every day.
It’s not “just” a broken heart,
It’s Empty silence tearing me apart.
And now you know why I say—
I’m fine.

Everyone keeps saying,
"You're young—
You've got time, you'll heal,
You’ll find your person someday."
But they don’t understand…
I already did.

She was the one—
Not because i saw i love you,
But because I chose her,
With everything I have.

My friends tried to pull me back,
Told me to stop holding on,
Said she was never really mine.
"You deserve more," they said.
But how do you walk away
When your heart is still standing in front of her?
How do you move on
When love made a home in someone
Who never even left the door open?

And yeah, it hurts—
Not in some poetic, soft kind of way.
It’s the kind of pain
That sits in your chest like a storm that won’t pass.
No words touch it.
No advice fixes it.
Because how do you explain
What it feels like to lose something
That was never yours to begin with?

When I’m sad, they ask,
"Are you okay? Want to talk?"
Talk? To who?
My father doesn’t just turn away —
he hardens.
Gets angry, like my emotions
are an inconvenience
he never signed up for.
He doesn’t listen.
He retreats behind silence and walls,
leaving me outside, unheard.
And my mother?
She looks right through me and says,
"You have no idea how bad it can get.
It’s only a broken heart, son."
Only.
Like grief needs to bleed to be real.
Like pain isn’t valid
unless it crushes you completely.
As if feeling deeply makes me fragile —
or worse, ungrateful.
So no, I don’t talk.
What’s the point
when even your hurt
is something you have to apologize for?

Yeah, I’m fine—that’s what I say.
But nobody sees the ache I carry every day.
It’s not “just” a broken heart,
It’s Empty silence tearing me apart
And now you know why I say—
I’m fine.

But here’s the truth you’ll always know—
I’m still your best friend, even if it hurts me so. If loving you means I have to let go,
I’ll sacrifice my heart, just to keep you close. Because sometimes love isn’t about holding on tight—
It’s learning when to step back,
And even if it breaks me, I’ll be here without a sound,
Still loving you, even if love means letting go Hopefully just For now