Jon’s Jon’s Song

Lyrics

January ninth, I still see it plain Lost my brother, he got hit by the flame Ain’t no system, it was bullets and pain Now I’m stuck with the memory stained I been shackled but I still remain Had to grow through grief in the rain Tryna heal but it don’t feel the same Now I move with a different aim ⸻ VERSE 1 (16 bars, storytelling + aggression) January ninth, I still replay that night One call changed everything in my life He was out there, then he faded from sight Now I talk to the sky when I’m fightin’ this life Ain’t no justice when you bury your bro Whole hood frozen, feel it down to my soul I been numb but I still feel it grow That pain deep and it don’t let go I was shackled by grief, couldn’t speak, couldn’t breathe Had to smile outside while I’m fallin’ beneath Every memory hit like it sharpened my teeth Now I bite on this mic just to finally release I don’t trust peace, I don’t trust fake love I been runnin’ from demons that don’t give up Every night I see flashbacks cuttin’ me up But I turn it to bars when I load it up Now I’m colder but I’m focused still Pain turned power, that’s the only deal I don’t fold under pressure, I know the drill Lost my bro but I’m standin’ still ⸻ HOOK (repeat) January ninth, I still see it plain Lost my brother, he got hit by the flame Ain’t no system, it was bullets and pain Now I’m stuck with the memory stained I been shackled but I still remain Had to grow through grief in the rain Tryna heal but it don’t feel the same Now I move with a different aim Verse 2 I don’t talk, I just move with intent Every tear that I shed turn to something I vent They don’t know what I lost, they just see what I spent But I been through the worst, I don’t break, I just bent Now I’m walkin’ with weight that you couldn’t imagine Every smile I got now got a layer of madness I been fightin’ myself, I been losin’ that balance Tryna turn all this pain into permanent status I was quiet too long, now I’m loud when I speak Every bar like a shot, I don’t aim, I just reach They don’t feel what I feel, they just watch from the streets I been starin’ at death, now it don’t even blink See my brother in dreams when I close my eyes Same night, same block, same cold-ass skies Now I don’t trust time, it just passes and lies And it don’t bring him back, it just sharpens my mind So I’m different now, I don’t move the same Heart cold but it still got a bruise from pain Every loss that I took was a fuel to the flame Now I step in the booth and I’m losin’ my chain They gon’ hear what I built out the grief and the stress Every line like a scar that I keep in my chest I ain’t perfect, but I promise I’m close to the edge And I turned all that pain into somethin’ that’s next