Back When We Were Us

Lirik

[Intro — Xpollo X] Yeah… Funny how we knew before we knew. Way back then. Before all the names, all the titles… Before we made love complicated. [Verse 1 — Xpollo X] I knew what it was when you first came around, But I was too young to know how to hold it down. Had too much pride, too many people in my ear, Every time you got close, I disappeared. I chose somebody else just to prove I could, You did the same thing, guess we both misunderstood. Acting like we ain’t care, knowing damn well we did, Breaking other hearts while protecting what we hid. We went from lovers to strangers, strangers to friends, Friends back to something we couldn’t let end. Every new girl got compared to you, And that’s when I knew what I already knew. [Pre-Chorus — Xpollo X] We could blame the timing, We could blame our pride, But every road I took Still brought me to your side. [Chorus — Xpollo X & Rylee Mae] Both: We been loving each other since way back when, Before the heartbreak, before the pretend. Choosing other people, knowing deep within, It was always you… way back when. Rylee Mae: We were toxic, we were young, we were stubborn as hell. Xpollo X: Had something real, but we ain’t handle it well. Both: Lost each other just to find us again, Still been loving each other since way back when. [Verse 2 — Rylee Mae] Don’t make it sound like you were hurting alone, I had nights I wanted you, still wouldn’t touch my phone. I’d see your name and let it ring out of spite, Then lay awake thinking ’bout you all night. I chose somebody safe when I wanted your fire, Tried convincing myself you weren’t what I desired. I’d tell everybody, “I’m done with him,” Knowing one call could pull me right back in. And yeah, you hurt me, but I hurt you too, We both got good at acting like we moved. Different faces laying next to our pain, Trying to replace something that couldn’t be changed. [Pre-Chorus — Rylee Mae] Maybe we needed distance, Maybe we needed time, To learn that loving somebody Don’t mean you get it right the first time. [Chorus — Both] We been loving each other since way back when, Before the heartbreak, before the pretend. Choosing other people, knowing deep within, It was always you… way back when. Rylee Mae: We were toxic, we were young, we were stubborn as hell. Xpollo X: Had something real, but we ain’t handle it well. Both: Lost each other just to find us again, Still been loving each other since way back when. [Verse 3 — Xpollo X] I ain’t gon’ lie and say I did everything right, There were times I chose ego instead of our life. Thought having options meant I had control, Whole time losing you was costing my soul. Had women around me, still felt alone, Could have a room full of love and it still wasn’t home. ’Cause home had your laugh, your attitude too, The way you challenged everything I thought I knew. [Rylee Mae — Response] And I ain’t innocent, I played my games, Wanted you jealous, wanted you feeling my pain. I’d post somebody knowing you’d probably see, Trying to make you hurt ’cause you were hurting me. We were keeping score when we should’ve been healing, Calling it hate when it still had feelings. Two hard heads with a love too deep, Making promises neither one knew how to keep. [Bridge — Call & Response] Xpollo X: Who you think about when the room gets quiet? Rylee Mae: You, but back then I’d probably deny it. Rylee Mae: Who did you want when you chose somebody new? Xpollo X: You. Every damn time, it was you. Rylee Mae: Then why’d we waste all those years? Xpollo X: Pride. Rylee Mae: Why’d we cause all those tears? Xpollo X: Fear. Both: Maybe we had to lose what we had To understand why it was always right here. [Final Chorus — Both / Big Harmonies] We been loving each other since way back when, Before the heartbreak, before the pretend. Chose everybody else, knowing deep within, It was always us… way back when. We were toxic, we were young, had some growing to do, I kept running from me, you kept running from you. But after every ending, here we go again, ‘Cause we’ve been loving each other since way back when. [Outro — Rylee Mae] Maybe we weren’t ready… [Xpollo X] But that don’t mean it wasn’t real. [Rylee Mae] Maybe we needed everything that happened… [Xpollo X] Just to finally say how we feel. [Both — Soft Harmony] Way back when… Way back when… Before everybody else… It was me and you back then. And maybe… It still is.