Smok

Lyrics

[Verse 1] [Soft Piano, strings, fragile vocal] Every day, I wake up... I still feel the shadows, That linger, Looking into the mirror, I see a stranger’s figure, Who is that? Oh, no, it can't be me... Nothing remains of who, I used to be... Although you've been gone, For so, so long... Silently, I thank God, (Thank God) Still, I feel the pain, From the scars, That remain, Just under my skin... [Chorus] [Haunting piano, strings, emotional, anxious vocal] A chill creeps up my spine, I can feel the panic building, Rising up again... Calm yourself, Take a breath, I need to breathe, slowly... In and out... (In and out) I tell myself, Remembering, He can't hurt me, Anymore, Ever again... [Verse 2] [Dark piano, cello, raw emotional vocal] I really hate this shit, I'm so tired, Of going through this, & sometimes when I'm alone, I feel that no matter, Where I go, or what I do, I'll never escape the hurt, The pain, The memories that remain, Burned deep inside my mind, Haunting my dreams, Every night, Fuck, PTSD, Fuck that life, Fuck everything, This time I'm Choosing my life... [Chorus] [Haunting piano, strings, bass, emotional anxious vocal] A chill creeps up my spine, I can feel the panic building, Rising up again... Calm yourself, Take a breath, I need to breathe, slowly... In and out... (In and out) I tell myself, Remembering, He can't hurt me, Anymore, Ever again... [Verse 3] [Low piano, soft wounded vocal] Like a thief in the night, He crept into my life, Destroying everything I had... Everything I had worked, So, hard for, Still, it wasn't enough, He tried... To snuff me out, So, I escaped into the night... Now he can't hurt me, Anymore, Ever again... [Short emotional piano/strings Interlude] [Verse 4] [Stripped piano, heartbroken vocal] I gave you my trust, Something I don't give easy, Despite my past, With you, I thought, I made a better choice, But there was no way... I couldn't have known the cost... Your love for me, Was a masquerade, All smoke and mirrors, You deceived me with, Your sleight of hand, And now every night... [Chorus] [Haunted piano, strings, layered vocal] A chill creeps up my spine, I can feel the panic building, Rising up again... Calm yourself, Take a breath, I need to breathe, slowly... In and out... (In and out) I tell myself, Remembering, He can't hurt me, Anymore, Ever again... [Verse 5] [Piano, heartbroken vocal] I forgive you, For all the times you lied, For every time you, Promised this would, be the last time, But it never was, You just kept, Violating me, In every fucking way, (Every fucking night) I was broken, So fucking numb, I came close... (So close) To losing my life... [Heartbroken haunting piano solo] [Outro] [Gentle piano, clear vocal] So, here I stand, now, No longer afraid, I rebuilt my life, Thanks to the choices, I made... The only thing I'll keep, Are the lessons, You taught me, Finally, closing the chapter, I never chose, To open at all... [Haunting piano fades out]