everything anymore makes me angry, mad,
and sad,
I canāt call my mom, sheās absent and my dads always working, never home to have a chat,
and my therapist says itās all my fault,
I donāt handle change well and Iām just prone to lashing out with a verbal assault,
of courseā¦
itās always meā¦
never the objects, hands, weapons used to beat,
when Iād say these noodles feel too wet to eat,
or I didnāt like how I felt like I was eating a friend when Iād eat meat,
or how Iād get told I would die if I played dolls with my gay friend down the street,
or how when every time youād push me Iād scream and youād send me away with the police,
and then you tell the world you loved meā¦
but you donāt tell the world these thingsā¦
you donāt tell them you wanted to slap my dad when I was 5, missed, and slapped me,
he called the police,
and you cried your way out of any trouble because your white and can fake it well,
donāt play me like this couple years ago you pulled a gun out to kill your husband and played the victim card as well,
intimidated us all into lying for you,
and if we even speak an ounce of it,
āDonāt listen theyāve always been a lying fool.ā
and you wonder why I donāt ever trust you?
why id rather live across the country than on the road next door to you?
you donāt even let me travel with my own daughter,
you blame the emotion running wild in the water,
but refuse therapy as if to refuse Godās presence at an Altar,
and then you claim to pray, if you prayed, you wouldnāt behave in 95% of the ways you do today.
youād self reflect and recognize,
āoh shit, I caused her a lot of pain.ā
āI still chose my father even though my child he fucking rapedā¦ā
and I gotta wake up and remember that every dayā¦
you donātā¦
but I know you remember sitting alone at lunch,
youād always say it felt so cold. crying aloneā¦
thatās what Iāve done every day since I was probably 4, and you think I wonāt sit here attacking with a fake smile like weāre in active war.
Ma, I love you, but only because youāve manipulated me so bad itās impossible for me to close that traumatic door,
so donāt go bragging when I do finally buy you that new coupe and your husband a 4 door,
because I didnāt want to,
I just couldnāt sleep without feeling like I left you feeling the same crushing weight of being poor,
that you made me carry because youād rather pop a pill than file sortā¦
I mean shit,
what else you want me to say?
thank you?
for neglect?
malnutrition?
and rampant abuse?
youāre god damned lucky youāre alive,
Iām paid by the same people who paid your husband to eliminate people who act like youā¦
goodnightā¦
itās 3:30ā¦in the morningā¦
I still havenāt slept dudeā¦
itās C-P-T-S-D,
gifted to me,
from you.
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