What am I supposed to Do

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I've been sick for months, can't seem to find a way My back is hurting bad, no relief in sight today A life of fear and panic, or a deep dark hole Meth was my escape, but now it's stealing my soul

My kids are far away, it's tearing me apart This sickness keeps me captive, it's breaking my heart Fighting through the panic, trying to stay strong But it's hard to find the strength when everything feels wrong

I'm just a broken man, trying to find my way Fighting through the darkness, just to face another day I give it all I've got, but it feels like I'm in reverse In this nightmare that I'm living, I'm the only witness to the hurt

I fought for sobriety but stumbled on the way Three weeks after winning, I got hit by life's dismay Mental, physical, emotional, it's all crashing down
haters words like venom, they leave me feeling bound

But I'll keep on fighting, for my kids I'll stand tall I'll push through this nightmare, I'll break through these walls I'm not the man they say, I'm not the one to blame I'll rise above the whispers, I won't let them taint my name

I'm just a broken man, trying to find my way Fighting through the darkness, just to face another day I give it all I've got, but it feels like I'm in reverse In this nightmare that I'm living, I'm the only witness to the hurt

What am I supposed to do, how do I break free? From this pain that's suffocating, holding onto me But for my kids I'll keep on trying, I'll never give in I'll find my way through this darkness, I'll be while again

I've been sick for months, escape the pain My back is hurting bad, it's driving me insane A life of fear and panic, stuck in a deep dark hole Meth was my escape, but now it's taking control

My kids are far away, it's tearing me apart This sickness keeps me captive, it's breaking my heart Fighting through the panic, gotta stay strong But it's hard to find the strength when everything goes wrong

I'm just a broken man, trying to find my way Battling the darkness, facing demons every day Giving all I've got, but I'm stuck in reverse In this nightmare that I'm living, I'm the only witness to the hurt

Fought for sobriety, but stumbled on the path Three weeks after winning, life showed me its wrath Mental, physical, emotional, crashing to the ground Ex-wife's words like venom, keeping me tightly bound

But I'll keep on fighting, for my kids, I'll stand tall I'll push through this nightmare, I'll break through these walls I'm not the man they say, I'm not the one to blame I'll rise above the whispers, they won't taint my name

i'm just a broken man, trying to find my way Battling the darkness, facing demons every day Giving all I've got, but I'm stuck in reverse In this nightmare that I'm living, I'm the only witness to the hurt

What am I supposed to do, how do I break free? From this pain that's suffocating, holding onto me But for my kids I'll keep on trying, I'll never give in I'll find my way through this darkness, I'll be whole again