Inside my head

Lyrics

[Verse 1] I said the wrong words once again, Now I can’t escape the blame. I close my eyes, I see it all, Every mistake, every fall. I turn a whisper to a scream, I make a nightmare out of dreams. And even when they say I’m fine, I still believe that I crossed the line. [Pre-Chorus] I try to run, I try to hide, But all these voices stay inside. I hold my breath, I count to ten, And then it starts all over again. [Chorus] There’s a war inside my head tonight, Every shadow feels alive. Every fear becomes a truth, Every wound becomes my proof. I’m so tired of being scared, Of losing everyone I care. I don’t wanna hate myself, I just wanna be somebody else. [Verse 2] I’m scared my heart will cause you pain, So I question every word I say. I read between the lines too deep, And lose the little peace I keep. I wear a smile across my face, While panic takes its fucking place. Nobody knows what I conceal, Nobody knows how hard it feels. [Pre-Chorus] I try to run, I try to hide, But all these voices stay inside. I hold my breath, I count to ten, And then it starts all over again. [Chorus] There’s a war inside my head tonight, Every shadow feels alive. Every fear becomes a truth, Every wound becomes my proof. I’m so tired of being scared, Of losing everyone I care. I don’t wanna hate myself, I just wanna be somebody else. [Bridge – soft] Maybe I’m not broken, maybe I’m just tired, Maybe all these thoughts are only ghosts disguised. Maybe I can fall without becoming lost, Maybe I can heal without counting every cost. [Breakdown – screamed] I’M NOT MY FEARS! I’M NOT MY PAIN! I’M NOT THE VOICE THAT DRIVES ME INSANE! I’M DONE! I’M DONE! WITH TEARING MYSELF APART! [Final Chorus] There’s a war inside my head tonight, But I’m still here, I’m still alive. Maybe fear can scream its truth, But it doesn’t get to choose. I’m still scared, but I’ll be brave, I’ll stop digging my own grave. I don’t have to hate myself… I just have to learn to live with myself. [Outro – whispered] The war is still inside my head… But tonight… I choose myself instead.