Back To Who I Was

Lyrics

[Intro] [whispered vocals]I’ve been tracing all my fault lines Like a map I never learned to read [Verse 1] Scars on my hands Now on my knees I’ve been waking up tired In a borrowed belief Every mirror feels A little out of tune Like I’m living in the corner Of my own old room [Pre-Chorus] [low vocal register Male]I kept my rage like rust on iron Held my hurt like sacred fire [female vocal joins]But it burned through every blessing Left me standing in the wire [Chorus] I’m paving the way back to who I was Not the ghost in the glass Or the weight I’ve dragged I’m laying these stones with my open palms Letting go of the ache Letting go of the past If the future shakes Let it shake me please I’m walking home to the old unseen Back to who I was [Verse 2] I’ve walked through storms To avoid my name Turned every quiet moment Into someone else to blame But your voice cut through Like color in the snow Saying "You don’t have to be What your worst days wrote" [Pre-Chorus] [male vocal]I wore my anger like an armor Heavy metal on my chest [female vocal]Now I’m setting down the burden [unison]Feeling air against my skin At last [Chorus] [Bridge] [female vocal Almost a whisper]I’m not my fear of failing I’m not my father’s hands [male vocal]I’m not the nights I stayed awake Counting every bitter strand [female vocal]I’m more than grief I couldn’t name More than panic in my lungs [unison Building]If I shake Then let me shiver ‘Til the old blood’s on the run [crescendo] [male vocal Shouted]Tear the pages Of the person I performed [female vocal]Let the ink run wild Let a softer shape be born [unison]Every breath a broken chain Every step a newer skin [guitar solo]